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What a journey! I have used sparkpeople off and on for the last few years and have seen so much success. Two years ago I lost 40 plus pounds through hard work, dedication and support. However, life became very unbalanced and out of control. As did my weight. I ballooned to my highest weight ever. At my last doctor's appointment I weighed in at a unbelievable 465 pounds. Since then I am guesstimating that I have gained an additional 10 pounds which puts me at or around 475. Yes, 475 human pounds. Did I know I was this big? No. I never saw myself as this large. My health, on paper, was great. No HBP, no cholesterol, or diabetes, all the things that people use to measure whether or not they are fat. So I was good, right? I could walk, go up and down stairs, fit comfortably in my car, still buy clothes in most stores so I was fine. Then one day I realized, I could no longer walk without being winded, stairs became a daily fear, my car suddenly got too tight, and clothes shopping became limited to two stores. And then the doctor's appointment. "You officially have high blood pressure." Blood pressure that could only be controlled through medication. I was at risk for a stroke at the age of 33. As I walked out of her office I began shuffling through the papers and saw one that stopped me in my tracks. The words jumped off the page. SEVERELY MORBIDLY OBESE. Who? Me? Surely, they had given me the wrong check out papers. Who was I fooling? Myself. Everyone else saw all of those 465 plus pounds. Everyone except me. How had I gotten here? A miscarriage, a failed relationship, two lay offs, a child diagnosed with ADHD, the death of two close family members, the separation from a sibling, coupled with an overall lack of self control contributed to this weight.

Now here I sit again, turning to my old friend, spark for help. I have to find myself. Under all the layers of pain, hurt, loss, disappointment, fat, I have to find myself again so that I can fly. I can not allow myself to be subjected to this life anymore. I am barely living. I have to be here for my daughter, for myself. So here goes nothing! Let the weight loss and more importantly LIVING begin!

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    Today is the BIG DAY!!!! If you have already posted your initial weigh in, emoticon . If you have NOT posted it yet, emoticon do.

    We're going to make the BL Winter Freeze Off Challenge the best EVER! We're off to an emoticon start! I'm cheering for you & the whole team! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    Let's set our Sparks on Fire emoticon and show everyone that WE are #1!!!!! GO LOVELY LIMES!
    (love ya, Dawn)
    2066 days ago
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    ..╬═╬.....on the ladder to better health!

    “Within you right now is the power to do things you never dreamed possible. This power becomes available to you just as soon as you can change your beliefs.” ~Dr. Maxwell Maltz

    We can do this, NEVER GIVE UP!!

    So glad that i am climbing this ladder with you and the rest of the Lovely Limes!


    2066 days ago
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    Wishing you a wonderful journey, strength for each task and great success in the winter freeze off challenge. My heart goes out to you, as another with nipped wings.......but thru it all, you are still here, still doing what needs to be done and your journey will be an encouragement to others. You are not alone!
    Blessings to you in the days ahead!
    2067 days ago
    Michelle! So glad you are joining us!!!! Welcome to the LOVELY LIMES and the Biggest Loser Winter Freeze Off Challenge. Along with DAWNWATERWOMAN and BARBARAROSE54, I am one of your co-leaders for the challenge. This is a great group of people and we are looking forward to 10 weeks of losing weight together! If you have not responded to your invite AND set up yourself on the Weight loss reporting thread on the team page, please get that done immediately. Your initial weigh-in is due on Thursday before midnight, and it is most helpful (to me) if you post each week on time so I can get the team statistics reported to the leadership thread on time. Looking forward to getting to know you and seeing you on the Chatterbox thread! Inbox me if you have any questions!!!
    2069 days ago
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    Are you all ready for the Season? BEWARE!!! The holiday treats are EVERYWHERE!!!! Don't let a few temptations throw you off of your goals. Keep a emoticon in your hand at holiday get-togethers to help prevent over-snacking. Take healthy foods WITH you to any events such as fruit or veggie trays so that you are guaranteed to have something there that you can eat without worrying about the emoticon . Remember you can have lots of FUN & FELLOWSHIP without having to over-indulge in FOOD. IF you DO... make it a point to add in some extra FITNESS to help counter balance your mistakes.

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    This is the week to post our initial weights for the BL Freeze off Challenge. Don't forget to do so, AND... come visit on the team page. We want to get to know you better! GO LOVELY LIMES!!!!!
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