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I've never been not over weight. I was a chunky teenager who thought I was fat, so by the time I graduated from college, I actually was. I must have made it up to 260 or so; the hightest weight I remember being weighed at was 255 at the doctor's office, and I know I wasn't at my largest then. I did eventually manage to get down to 210 at my lowest, but never managed to get any lower than that. For the last two or so years I've been maintaining between 215 and 230, so it could be worse.

But you know, I'm just tired of feeling out of control. I'm tired of having to settle for what I can find in plus size stores, or only being able to shop for jeans online. I'm tired of not going to the beach - an activity I happen to love by the way - because I am afraid to be seen in a bathing suit. I'm tired of the person in the mirror not matching the person who I imagine in my head. I'm tired of being invisible because I don't want anyone to notice me. And although I've never felt persecuted for my weight, I hear people treat you differently when you're "normal people size". I want to see if that's true. Unfortunately, I suspect it is.

And there's this, too: I'm 33, overweight, and the member of a family in which obesity, diabetes, high blood pressure, and other strange and mysterious diseases are common. One day, the extra weight will catch up with me, and I refuse to succumb to any of these things. I want nothing to do with anything that can make me dead. Changes have to be made.

So this is the plan: 225 today. My first goal is 175, a weight I haven't seen since high school. Once I get there, I'll decided where my ultimate goal will be, since I have no idea what a good weight would be for me, height and weight charts aside. It's going to include back to the gym, tracking food, and an attitude adjustment. Less restless boredom on the weekends and more exploring - hiking trails, trips to the beach, and some other stuff I haven't even thought of yet. Maybe even a yoga class or zumba class. I'm flexible. But either way, no more ugly plus size patterns, invisibility, or easily curable diseases. Not for me. Nuh-uh. Not any more.

Member Since: 2/25/2010

Fitness Minutes: 20,271

My Goals:
Lose 50 pounds by December 31 2010, i.e. 225 to 175, then readjust my goal from there.

My Program:
Tracking my food intake, exercise, more fruits and veggies, less soda, more activity in general.

Personal Information:
Native Floridian, 30s, geeky and proud of it.

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  • v TANSHAN1
    Hi! Welcome to the Done Being the Fat Girl team.. This truly is a great
    team...lots of laughs and lots of "Wow! Now I get it " moments..Glad to
    see you and hope you post alot...Come on to the threads and have some
    fun...somebody is always around.

    Peace my lettuce leaf,
    "THE Sexxy Strapless Strawberry"
    3527 days ago
  • v BLINK1217
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    (='.'=) Welcome to the DONE Girls Team!

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    3528 days ago