SAFETYSUE
I had to pop in and leave a message and let you know that I added you as a friend. I left a message on your blog today and wanted to welcome you back as a whole new person with many new difficulties to over come. I was paralyzed falling from a fire engine 19 years age. I was 37years old with a very active lifestyle and in one instant that all changed. I had to literally grieve the loss of a huge part of who I was and struggle to find some new passions in my life that were things you can do totally confined, unable to use your legs, butt, abdomen... No more Firm Videos that I did 5 days a week. I could hardly stand to see others(and that was everyone) using their legs to walk and not using them to their best ability and appreciating what they could do for them. It was a thousand things that hit me and I had to grieve and let go of of each and every thing I could no longer do. But I did find other ways to feel great about and to make life worth fighting to live it healthy, and as active as I possibly can.
You can do this and I would love to help in any way I can. From reading your page a little it looks like you have lost a loved one as well. So you know the stages of grief, it sounds like you need some support as what you are going through now is like losing a huge part of who you are and you need to grieve that loss. It was a long process for me as I put on the smiles and the charm, to be the same great active, social, physical, leader, be there for you any time around the clock friend. Now I was limited from all of those things, I tried to be everything, but I did it at the expernse of not addressing what I needed and not letting my family and friends know what I needed. When I finally realized I had to work on me and take care of me first was when my girls were off to college and my hubby worked long hours. If I wanted a life I had to make a new one for myself with the best parts of who I am inside. I am getting there and losing the weight that is so easy to gain when you are confined to a wheelchair, but I am going to get there.
It can be done and you will be stronger for it, I know it is hard to see from where you are now....but trust me there is a wonderful life still waiting for you even with your disability. Start with looking in the mirror and telling yourself that face you see is the same person you have always been, you just have to fight harder than anyone without disabilities to get yourself back. You can do it! I will be there to help you! I will stay on this journey and take it you with me!! Your new SP friend!!
KSHELTON21
Kristie it sounds like we've got a lot in common. I had been off SP for a few months due to depression. Got a long, hard road ahead of me too but not as tough as you. I will be praying for you. You can do this! Karen 3848 days ago