SISYPHUS_CLIMBS
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"I can name a LOT of things that taste better than skinny feels. Potatoes! Bread!"


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I decided for my return to SP that I would update my user name to something more inspiring. I’ve always likened my weight loss efforts to the Greek myth of Sisyphus – a deceitful king who repeatedly outsmarted the gods. Zeus finally had him punished by forcing him to roll a large rock up a steep hill, only to watch it slide all the way down whenever he got close to the top. Sisyphus has long been used as a metaphor for futility and frustration.

My perceptions of the mountain and the rock have changed over time. When I was really struggling with binge eating and depression, the the mountain represented my attitude that I had to overcome, and the rock represented all the emotional baggage I'm carrying along the way. I have learned to manage my depression - I won't say fixed/overcome, because it is still there, lingering, but I have found ways of living with it. And I won't lie, getting on the right combination of medication helps.

The mountain can also represent my larger goals: getting healthy, completing my PhD, settling into my new role at work, and making time for my family. The rock in this case is self-sabotage, of which I am unfortunately guilty. Putting off working on my dissertation because I'm afraid of negative feedback from my advisor, eating junk food even though I have healthy alternatives available, working on easier tasks instead of the higher priority ones, etc. All these are things I know I should not do because they take me further from my goals, yet I do them anyway. And so they become my rock, pushing me farther down the hill, away from the summit that I'm trying to reach.


Member Since: 2/23/2011

Fitness Minutes: 91,193

My Goals:
Become more in tuned with my emotional state, manage my binge eating disorder and depression, focus on my long-term priorities rather than what gives me satisfaction in the short term.


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  • v CHERIE38
    What a liberation to realize that the "voice in my head" is not who I am

    Who am I ?
    The one who see's that
    Eckhart Tolle His book called "the Power of Now" is a life changer
    17 days ago
  • v BOBBIESOCKS-46
    emoticon Sisy emoticon Every week since we started on your weight loss on our ***Lose 25 Pounds in 25 Weeks, TEAM Challenge***. emoticon

    emoticon Bobbie
    74 days ago
  • v WEAVERNI2
    What an appropriate Goodie for me! Your note was extremely helpful. Persistence is so important. I'm know I need extra help to break this binge pattern. Come on Vaccine! emoticon
    89 days ago
  • v BOBBIESOCKS-46
    Thanks for joining me Sisy on the thread "Your Monthly Measurements" I was felling kind of lonely. You're doin good on your weight. I think we all gained a little but it's better than a lot over the holidays don't you think.

    emoticon Bobbie
    101 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/5/2021 5:02:07 AM
  • v BOBBIESOCKS-46
    You're very welcome, I miss you when you don't post for a while. The "Lose 25 pounds in 25 weeks (12/20/20 to 6/6/21)" thread is up if you want to track your weight again. I'm worried about Nici (the one with the pic of a curled up cat). I haven't seen here since September.

    emoticon Bobbie
    121 days ago
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