isolating

I went to work last weekend and it was horrible. We worked short and I felt like crap. And then with the mood swings with the prednisone, I really did not like myself. And then I could not sleep because of the prednisone.So, I had to take a med to sleep which made me very thirsty. And I had a confrontation with a supervisor and a co worker from the other side of the unit about the lack of staffing of my side of the unit.I did not get a break on Sat night. Then I was exposed to a radioactive urine splash and had to talk to the safety officer Monday AM so he could reassure me with a geiger counter that I was safe. And my period decided to return this month. So, hormones from hell.

I went to the ENT Monday but it was a mistake. My husband was given that date but my appt is not until this coming Monday, the 18th. So, I will see him this Monday. Meanwhile, the ringing in my ears and the pounding heart beat in my head continues. The antibiotic is killing my stomach so I am taking acidolophus. I am still having headaches from hell periodically as the med wears off. I am on nasal steroids and antibiotic. My vision occasionally distorts when my head is pounding. And since I returned to work, I pulled a tendon on my dominant wrist and it is sore and the prednisone is no longer in my system so my knee pain is back and I misstepped and have a new pain below my knee.

My eating is okay not great but I am so thirsty from meds, I am now drinking water and soda and still thirsty. And I have not returned to the gym. I am past frustration. meanwhile, all this crap is making my head (depression and ocd) worsen. So, I am a little self destructive. So, my talk doc and med doc are concerned enough to ask if I am suicidal and since I learn my lessons well, and don't want another involuntary stay at St Vinny's, I decline to answer so my doc visits are more frequent for a time being...This is not a good day, nor week, nor month nor year...