losing excess baggage
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Well it's been almost two weeks since I've started really following a program. At first I took a few days just learning how everything worked on the site. The next week I started tracking my food everyday. Once you add foods to your favorites it becomes faster and more efficient to track everyday. Then I knew I had to work on exercise. ugh I set up a program I knew I could follow and that has been working out for me. But the biggest feeling I have right now is a feeling of Peace that has come over me. I feel like everything is right in my life right now. I don' t feel like a failure or out of control. The amazing thing is I'm finding I'm more active and can get more done each day probably because I don't feel that extra burden of hopelessness on my shoulders. This is going to happen. I am in that place finally where I can get this done. It took a long time and a lot of work to get here, and a lot of time and money in therepy as well, for me to get to a place to drop of all the baggage of my youth and move on with my life. The fat I have been carrying around on my body is an accumulation of all the insecurity I have felt all my life. The put downs, the critisisim that was not warranted or constructive. The comments made that lowered my self esteem. It's time I left it all and continue my journey in life a lot lighter. Slowly I will leave all those things behind me by following my program and exercising and reshaping my life in more ways than just by losing the weight.