It all began with a cruise
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
I'm one of those girls who remember my first diet when I was 13. It all started because a boy that I had a crush on told me how pretty I'd be if I lost a few pounds, so instead of the kiss I so longed for, I got a diss. Then and there, I started on my life long journey of weight loss ups and downs.
I became a very thin teenager until I hit puberty and grew a butt and boobs! At the age of 14 my mom was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. I lost her at the age of 15 1/2. I turned to weight lifting as a survival vice. (this was in the 80's mind you, before girls lifted weights) I was very involved in body building and softball until I got pregnant 4 month after marriage...then everything came to a hault. Then began the slow creeping of the pounds.
Over the next 16 years I was always looking for the quick fix diets, from Optifast to Jenny Craig to LA Weight Loss and many, many more. With each diet and failure, I gained all the weight back plus more. Fast forward to May of 07.
Marc and I went on a cruise with the Austin Fire Dept....
I thought I was going to die from heart failure when I had to climb those 9 flights of stairs at the emergency drill...This was my first Ah Ha moment.
I will never look at Jamaica the same: We decided to go to shore and tour etc. with other firemen and their wives. While my husband was in a shop me and another fireman, Lee hung out outside of the store. A Jamaican lady approached me and said in a very loud tone " Ooooh Lady, YOU ARE SO FAT", and proceded to just laugh at me and ask me why I was so fat. I just cried...Lee was so nice, and just told me not to pay attention to her, but the damage was done...this was my second Ah Ha moment. Then we all decided to go to Margaritaville to eat.. The dreaded deck chair challenge was upon me. We all sat down...I tried to find the widest chair I could. I only could sit about 5 inches into the front of the chair with the arms cutting into my legs. Without my request a waiter brought me a much wider metal chair to switch.. I tried not to react embarrassed, but it was inevitable. Third and final Ah Ha moment. I didn't think about it on that horrible day, but it was a day that litterally saved my life.
When we returned home, I dusted off my gym membership card and went to 24 Hour Fitness where I spent two months watching different trainers and trying to get up the nerve to let someone into world of obesity. When I did find my trainer, I just sat there and watched him as he would walk by...I finally blurted out his name as he was walking out one day and thats what started what now is my weightloss journey. May 7, 2007 was my first training session. I learned that there was more to working out than riding a recumbant bike for 20 minutes and oh yes, you do actually break a sweat! John showed and taught me things about propper nutrition and exercise that I never knew. I also joined Weight Watchers to have another form of acountability and support.
Today I continue to train twice a week, now with a new trainer named Matt Jackson. (John moved last January) Matt is awesome and has helped me take it to the next level.
I've now lost a total of 176 lbs and 73.5 inches. I am working towards my goal of losing 200 lbs in 2 years which will be in May 09. I also have a goal of being a fitness instructor and will work towards getting certified so that I can teach kickboxing and encourage other self-consious overweight people not to feel ashamed of going to the gym and working to better their lives.