One month in: An update
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Alright, well, I'm not quite sure what to say.
Somedays I feel GREAT!! Like I'm invincible and doing the greatest thing on Earth (well, it kind of is) and travelling and experiencing and eating and loving every minute of it. Then there are nights like tonight where I feel like I'm just eating it. Spending lots of time eating.
I thought on board it would be easy to limit. Then I forgot that buffets (and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches) are my weaknesses. I thought in port I would walk enough to offset everything that I eat. I guess I didn't really realize just how much there is to try, and how little walking we really do soemtimes.
I don't know what to do. Sure, there's a gym on board, but somehow I find nearly no time to do it. Sure, I brought a pen/paper style calorie counter, but when you try two bites of everything, it's impossible to count your calories.
I know I've lost 35 pounds, and only gained 10 of it back, which is a good thing, and I don't think I could get above 160 again really...no I could...I just dont think my mentality would let me. I need to stay under 160. It was too hard, too long of a journey to get above 160. But I'm on the border already.
And summer is coming!! Hawaii, Costa Rica! I need to look good for those ports, and to look good and be healthy for when summer really turns up, and I am living with my boyfriend. I should be having a grand old time. And I want him to see me and know exactly what he was missing.
I just dont know where my motivation went. My ability to moderate. It's all gone down the drain, somehow, somewhere. I think that was in Puerto Rico, actually, that it all went downhill. After months...about 6 months! I think it was...of doing so well, working so hard, I lose traction in 2 weeks of not having sparkpeople.
Internet on board costs $12 per 30 minutes. I think, in reality, it might be worth it to just buy the extra minutes and not gain the weight. To track everything and know what I'm doing. Is it worth the approximately $4 it might cost a day? I guess I have to weigh my options. No pun intended?
What do you all think? I hope you all are doing fantastically. I miss you all, and can't wait to be back here regularly!!