Fibro Hell

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Today I lost the battle. I've been trying to keep up but the fibromyalgia pain and muscle spasms have won the day. I know there will be weeks like this - but it doesn't make it any easier on those of us who really want to knuckle down and work our fitness programs. I even took one of Andrew's pain pills and it has not provided any relief

It is days like this, that I wish to Heaven that I had friends close by that could come and have tea with me as I basked in the comfort of their presence. I usually don't mind how alone I am all the time, but today, today I do.

I'm probably going to be taking it easy for the rest of the week. I am not able to sit and type long, and for some reason I am finding it difficult to type and my words get jumbled. I can only pray this is not a symptom of yet another physical onslaught. I have too many medical issues to deal with now as it is.

Today I walked a little, cleaned a little, but stopped when the pain became just too much. At least I'm not depressed and am feeling positive. It's just a matter of time. The flare will subside eventually. I wish I could go to the chiropractor, but with the rising cost of food and fuel, there is no money for anything extra. We can't even afford to go to or rent a movie this weekend. Our friend Ed is coming by Sunday for a few hours and that will be lots of fun so I'm looking forward to that.

Thank you for reading my blog, you may not be able to come to my home and have tea with me, but your visit to my blog and page is just as comforting.

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    Big hugs.....I'd love to have tea with you!
    4476 days ago
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    I can totally relate to you with the fibro pain as I have it myself. I am so glad that you are not depressed and staying positive as it is way too easy to get into depression when you hurt all the time. I fight it myself. I can also relate to needing to go to the chiropractor and not having the funds. I just got through going to the dentist and now am having a colonoscopy-plus took a dog to the vet-all of this to the tune of $600. It adds up so fast. I can leader of Christians with fibromyalgia and would love it if you wanted to join our group (you are not in it are you??? I do not see you post if you are and don't remember meeting you before but you know how fibro fog can be)
    Hang in there and when you don't feel well enough to do anything don't push it....just know that over the long haul is what counts and give yourself a break when you hurt. I have had to learn that the hard way by pushing until I collapse in pain. We can be so stubborn sometimes.
    4478 days ago
    What courage you have you are an inspiration to me and everyone else if you can do this and go through this we can hit the weight loss battle without a problem ya know?
    4479 days ago
    The doorbell chimes....Paaaami ohhh Paaaami its meee...she turns the knob and and strolls in, heading toward Pami's room with her arms laden....a basket of fresh fruits, a cloth bag full of lovely books and a bunch of flowers....she sits down in a comfy chair and spends the afternoon peeling the fruit. handing the sliced pieces to Pami as they laugh over the roman style treatment...then Pami settles down into her pillows as she has short stories and poems read to her....ah ah ah Pami ...wish I could stay with you longer but I need to go fix the family dinner....I will come back though.....then she gets a kiss on both cheeks and out the door Tanibear goes....
    4480 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/13/2008 4:06:20 PM
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    Sorry Pami, you are not feeling well. Wish I could drop by and have some tea with ya. But know, that your spark friends and thinking of you and hope you feel better soon.

    4480 days ago
    Pami, I'm sorry you feel bad. I wish I could take your pain away! I love you, sister, get better
    4480 days ago
    emoticon I can't say know how much pain your in right now but do understand what pain is that know one can understand. I only wish there was some way could be there just to talk and have that coffee or tea with you.

    4480 days ago
  • 46A39P
    Oh Pami I'm so sorry you are in such pain! :( I'd imagine the words jumbling could be from the pain. I remember times of pain when I could barely think much less talk. Do you take medication for your fibromyalgia pain - for the muscle spasms? I used to take an antispasmotic for spasms and it helped some...if I rememember correctly it was called Tizanadine (sp). I am glad you are not feeling depressed. When I had a lot of pain, it caused depression in me. It was miserable. I hope you are feeling relief soon. Do you swim? Or even just spend time in a pool for it's weightlessness effect on the body? My mom goes to the pool after PT on her foot, she loves it.

    I am hoping today is a better day for you! I'll bring some herbal teas over. When I need something to sooth, I drink Chamomile tea.

    Hope you feel better Pami.

    4480 days ago
    Pami: Just wanting to give you a hug and thank you for adding me to your friends. The memory and speaking difficulty comes with Fibro. Most of us take pain pills- Ultram is one that many take. Tonight I was talking to a friend and I could not remember the light house . I kept saying houses on Maine and the H20- and he guessed light houses. This was a new friend we went to dinner with from church.

    Maybe that would help to get on a regular sleep aid if needed, an antidepressant ( that works with bipolar) helps fibro pain
    and many of us use Ultram, and I use Vicodin as I have RSD pain on top of fibro, etc.

    When you say you don't know how much you will be on 0ur group- Christians with Fibromyalgia, it is days like this that you need us the most. The internet is truly remarkable and we have remarkable support in our group. just bathe in Karen's prayers!
    Hug you Sandi
    4480 days ago
    Pami that is why I love the internet ! I have made so many friends here who I support and who support me! Sometimes you get some people who you get extremely close to by reading their blogs and their life struggles. It definitely is not easy, but God never gives us more than we can handle.

    I am glad I can be here for you!


    PS- I filled my gas tank today $63
    4480 days ago
    Pami, just worry about getting better, and know we're with you in heart. We miss you, but we'll all have days and weeks like this (just ask me about my right arm and leg someday. I know how you feel).

    Take care. I'm praying for you.


    4480 days ago
    Hi Pami: well let me tell ya girl if I could get to you I would. It would be wonderful to spend a day with you. I just hope that you get better really soon. will miss you while you are away. And will be thinking of you often. Take care of yourself.
    love ya
    4481 days ago

    I wish I lived close to you. I would come visit. (after work)

    I am glad you are not getting depressed over this though I love to hear the positive come through in the tough times.

    Keep it up girl you will get through this.

    Love ya!
    4481 days ago
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