Sunday, July 27, 2008
I'm so tired, so tired of my ups and downs with my weight loss. I can't seem to get it together, get focused long-term. I did well almost 2 years ago, I lost 40lbs. but I can't seem to get passed that. Since then, this last 2 years, I've been gaining and losing the same 15-16lbs. ongoing. For the most part, I've done well with exercising consistently (although I didn't do any at all this last week since the kids were gone-I just did absolutely nothing), but I'm battling that inner me of not caring and just eating whatever I want and not in small quantities either. I'm so frustrated with myself and my cycles, it's almost like I'm Bipolar with my weight journey. I have a wonderful life, wonderful husband and children, great job, not stressed too much, there is no reason why I can't gain control in this part of my life as well. What is wrong with me!!! I know I'm not alone, I've read so many other stories out there where people just like me have the same struggles but alas I just can't seem to understand why I'll do so well for a while and then go nuts! I'm such a sweet-aholic. I plan on starting a new day tomorrow and make better choices and start up exercising again. Maybe this time will be different.