Just a thought
Monday, August 25, 2008
I was thinking about my weight loss and how my body seems to work - and I just don't know what to think sometimes. I do in fact gain weight steadily if I don't watch what I am doing. But as of recently I don't gain at the same rate as I used to. I gain weight a good bit slower. though.. gaining is gaining no matter what way I look at it. It takes FOREVER for me to lose weight. My cousin loses weight very easily, if we decided to go on the same diet she would lose 10pds before I lose 2.
I have been thinking about my self-esteem and self image, I like to evaluate it before I go back on a diet (I hate that word- its not a diet... its a life change.. whatever). I think I am doing okay in the self image department.. I guess. I like the way I look - I don't hate myself, I think I am attractive; I just don't think I am worthy of anyone's affection in the state that I am in. Whatever. I am going to do this. Lets get on with the show.