Monday, September 08, 2008
My husband is back on the night shift and I was bored and eating in a way that actually digusted myself, so in a matter of a month, I came back 9 lbs bigger. I cannot keep doing this to myself. I was actually grossing myself out and I have unfortunately grown rather accustomed to my weird food issues.
The good news is that I decided to come back. My friend actually said to me the other day to not get a pair of stilettos because there is no way I could walk on them without breaking an ankle because of my weight. It was not meant to be hurtful, but I feel a difference in my comfort level.
At one point in my life I weighed 330 lbs and I lost 128 lbs by going out and not eating for days at a time. Then was pregnant for two years in a row and gained quite a bit of weight in the beginning as I was forced to resume healthier eating habits. Now with my life being more isolated, I am back to old habits. It is time to quit pouting and find a real solution to this issue. Self-control.