Monday, September 08, 2008

My husband is back on the night shift and I was bored and eating in a way that actually digusted myself, so in a matter of a month, I came back 9 lbs bigger. I cannot keep doing this to myself. I was actually grossing myself out and I have unfortunately grown rather accustomed to my weird food issues.

The good news is that I decided to come back. My friend actually said to me the other day to not get a pair of stilettos because there is no way I could walk on them without breaking an ankle because of my weight. It was not meant to be hurtful, but I feel a difference in my comfort level.

At one point in my life I weighed 330 lbs and I lost 128 lbs by going out and not eating for days at a time. Then was pregnant for two years in a row and gained quite a bit of weight in the beginning as I was forced to resume healthier eating habits. Now with my life being more isolated, I am back to old habits. It is time to quit pouting and find a real solution to this issue. Self-control.
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  • FITJEN48
    You're back here. That's the first step. Give yourself a little break, and some credit for coming back. Just build on that. A little at a time. You can do that, and before long, that momentum will pick up and you'll be right back on track. Thanks for being so sweet on my page. It can be a tough journey, but you're worth it. You can do this. You already have! Just start where you are, and no beating yourself up, be your own best friend. Hugs.
    4398 days ago
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    When i was reading this blog it sounded like my own words. I also have had moments of being sickened by the way I was eating, which sadly only made the eating worse.
    Good that you decided to come back.
    Good luck!
    4399 days ago
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