Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Well, August proved to be a tough month for me. I lost 4.8 pounds. That really doesn't sound like a lot, but combined with last month, it is over 11 pounds. So, I'll take it with a smile. In total, as of 9/10 (today) I have lost 23.2 pounds. It could have been more if I exersized.
I hurt my shoulder really bad lifting weights. The first couple of days, I could hardly move.....let alone exersize. It ended up bothering me for over three weeks. I let that injury become an excuse for not exersizing. I did close to no extra exersize the month of August. My food choices could also have been better.
Even though I stayed within calorie range most every day, I am still not happy about how I ate last month. I started tracking my sodium and calcium intake and I am amazed at the amout of sodium I eat. Part of it is the salty snacks like chips and pretzels, the other part is all of the processed food that I eat. I need to work on creating healthier meals and bringing lunches to work.
August was a month of excuses and the scale reflects my attitude and effort. I am a little down on myself for it, but as I sit here typing, I know that I have already made positive changes for September and I still made progress. It didn't always feel like that though.
Because the scale barely moved last month, I had a lot of thoughts running through my head. I felt like good fighting evil. One point I started feeling 'what am I doing this for? if I am not going to lose weight, why try?' But, then a favorite quote ran through my head. I don't remember it verbatum, but the general gyst is "Do what you've always been doing and you'll always get what you've always gotten." Well, if I live the way I currently do, I weigh 183. If I stop trying, I go back. Back to 206 and gaining. I can't do that. So, that's why I have to keep trying. If staying at 183 means I have to struggle to try to do it, then that is my burden. One day, it won't feel like I am trying and I will be able to move forward with my goals. I guess that is what Kris meant by the slower you lose the better. It gives your mind and body a chance to really get in tune with each other and move forward....together.
This is going to be a long journey. But, I know I can and will reach my goal.