weigh in Wednesday
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
I was a bit sad this morning as the scale did not move.
I was a lot frustrated that I have not been getting my Spark mail.
I went out today so I would not be tempted to console myself with food. I went to visit an old work buddy who I had not seen in a long time. It was so sweet to hear him tell me I looked beautiful. I needed a good boost to my ego. I have to admit I enjoy the praise. I get embarrassed easy when people say things but then feel disappointed when they don't. Go figure that one out.
I then went to my office to start on that project again and found my old journeys, it was really a blast from the past. It was interesting to see how I felt from the start of my journey. I have come a long way.
When it figured it out from my highest weight till today I have lost 167.6 pound....
That seems so impossible, but I have the pictures to prove it.....
. I also took out my old jeans from 3 years ago that were tight and a shirt that I could not button. I can fit in half of them....
This is a strange journey I'm on. My minds eye doesn't see it or feel it. I still have to remind myself almost every time I leave my home that I'm not that nearly 350 pound women. I wonder when it will happen, or will it happen? Will I have to be reassured and praised for the rest of my life that I have lost weight? How do we retrain our brain to accept our new self?
How do we get over feeling self conscious about our bodies?
I wonder when will people get tired of telling me how good I look. maybe they already are?
Poor Gary has to hear everyday about my progress or lack of progress, he might be ready to choke me....lol I give him the blow by blow of sparkpeople everyday......I need to get more activities in my life.
As always thank you my dear friends and family for your support, encouragement and love. I could never do it with out all of you.