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Friday, October 10, 2008

This was not my best day. I woke early as always did my work out and had a shower. I was dreading what I had to do. This was the day I had to resign from my new job. For many reasons it was not working out. I felt nervous and stressed. I hate to be a quitter. Still I need to do what is best for me and my well being. So I called and resigned. I then got dressed and left the house. I was feeling frustrated, anxious and stressed. Then I got an over whelming craving for "Fat Food" In my past I would go right to the drive thur at McDonald's. I would never go inside because I felt everyone was thinking, fat girl you have had enough food. The drive up window was my best friend at one point in my life. It keep me in "Fat Food" and time of the day or night and no one had to see me.
My mind was spinning as to what can I do... I DO NOT want to go eat. I need something else to do.....Oh shopping my mind told, you know how you love to shop...I was worried that is my next addiction...over spending. I reminded myself I just quit my job...not extra pocket money....How will i relieve my stress and feel better. Then it hit me....I'll go to the park, we have a beautiful park right in the middle of our city....I got there and all the flowers were beautiful. I got out of my car and walked to the duck pond. It was a warm morning and the ducks were swimming and waiting for someone to feed them..it would not be me, as I did not bring anything for them. I walked around the pond, I could feel some of my stress go and I looked around, took a few deep breathes and felt so much better. The flowers were beautiful the trees starting to turn red and gold...I felt relief, I started to walk some more and see kids playing on the swings and slide. having so much fun...its nice to see kids laughing and playing...I slowly walked back to my car feeling so much better and light again. My stress and frustrations had left me. I was not having any cravings and the thought of a "fat Food" meal made me frown...my thought was I am learning new ways to cope. I have to power to over come my stress with out food.
I have learned so much from sparkpeople. I have a right to be proud of myself. I'm learning.....thank you sparkpeople for giving me the tools I need to learn a new life style... a new healthy me.....it feels wonderful....


Have a healthy day.

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  • SHADOWPUP
    My own personal challenge is avoiding the tendency to stick around TOO long. Kudos to you for making what was clearly a tough decision.
    4042 days ago
  • CAROL_HOORAH
    I recently resigned from my job too, and I had all the same feelings! I hate to be a "quitter" as well, but we have to do what's best for our well-being right! Spark has taught us that much!! :) Congrats!
    4049 days ago
  • DISTAN
    Kitt What a great way to get rid of stress and wanting to eat. You are not a quitter I know what your job was. Why would you want to go back to that????? You made the right choice. Good for you.

    Diane
    4050 days ago
  • HIKERSAN
    Kitt,
    What a wonderful experience. I really enjoyed reading how you used to cope, your reasoning, and the new way you found to relieve the stress!
    As for resigning, . . . that is not quitting, it is self nurturing, knowing when a certain course of action is not in your best interest. That is IMPORTANT!
    You took a potentially disastrous day, and turned it around to be an awesome day! what a great achievement!
    Thank you so much for sharing!
    Hugs,
    Sandy emoticon emoticon
    4052 days ago
  • SUN_CLAY
    Huge accomplishment there Kitt!!! Look at what you did, you turned to a healthy beautiful walk.....not the golden arches. WOOOHOOO! it just goes to show you have truly embraced this wonderful new lifestyle! great job!
    4052 days ago
  • QUILTINGB52
    Congratulations for not staying in a job that isn't a good fit! I don't see that you are a quitter ~ YOU are what's important!!

    Your walk through the park sounds very relaxing ~ take advantage of it and go there again!

    And congratulations for not giving in to that "fat food devil" ~ you are a much happier person to have overcome that obstacle!!

    Take care!
    ~Ann
    4052 days ago
  • HEALTHYGAL01
    I'm so proud of you for both giving up on a job that stresses you out even though part of you did not want to and for relieving stress in such a great way.
    Thank you !
    Sara
    4052 days ago
  • MOV4WARD
    Kitt, i'm so very tickled for you. my car used to turn into McD's all by itself, swear!!! love that you fought thru the urge & took a walk! woot!

    now is a good time to add this to your list so you'll remember & do it again next time, eh? Hopefully we'll lose the urge for fat food and the urge to walk will happen instead :)
    4052 days ago
  • VELVETSAPPHIRE
    What a wonderful way to relax and enjoy your success. I used to go to the park and since I can't walk much, loved to sit there and watch the kids play, the dogs romp with their owners and I always love to watch the birds. Next time you go, you can take some bread crumbs and feed the ducks rather than yourself :)

    Hope you have a wonderful weekend ~ keep up the good work :)

    Carol

    4053 days ago
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