Friday, October 10, 2008
This was not my best day. I woke early as always did my work out and had a shower. I was dreading what I had to do. This was the day I had to resign from my new job. For many reasons it was not working out. I felt nervous and stressed. I hate to be a quitter. Still I need to do what is best for me and my well being. So I called and resigned. I then got dressed and left the house. I was feeling frustrated, anxious and stressed. Then I got an over whelming craving for "Fat Food" In my past I would go right to the drive thur at McDonald's. I would never go inside because I felt everyone was thinking, fat girl you have had enough food. The drive up window was my best friend at one point in my life. It keep me in "Fat Food" and time of the day or night and no one had to see me.
My mind was spinning as to what can I do... I DO NOT want to go eat. I need something else to do.....Oh shopping my mind told, you know how you love to shop...I was worried that is my next addiction...over spending. I reminded myself I just quit my job...not extra pocket money....How will i relieve my stress and feel better. Then it hit me....I'll go to the park, we have a beautiful park right in the middle of our city....I got there and all the flowers were beautiful. I got out of my car and walked to the duck pond. It was a warm morning and the ducks were swimming and waiting for someone to feed them..it would not be me, as I did not bring anything for them. I walked around the pond, I could feel some of my stress go and I looked around, took a few deep breathes and felt so much better. The flowers were beautiful the trees starting to turn red and gold...I felt relief, I started to walk some more and see kids playing on the swings and slide. having so much fun...its nice to see kids laughing and playing...I slowly walked back to my car feeling so much better and light again. My stress and frustrations had left me. I was not having any cravings and the thought of a "fat Food" meal made me frown...my thought was I am learning new ways to cope. I have to power to over come my stress with out food.
I have learned so much from sparkpeople. I have a right to be proud of myself. I'm learning.....thank you sparkpeople for giving me the tools I need to learn a new life style... a new healthy me.....it feels wonderful....
Have a healthy day.