Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I just wanted to come back and tell each of you thank you for all the hugs, prayers and just for thinking of us. They have helped knowing that my spark friends are out there thinking of us.
It has been a roller coaster of a ride this last day. I'm so sad that she is no longer with us but so thankful that she is no longer in pain. She had been in pain for over a year and in intense pain for months and months.
My mom called me around 12:20 yesterday afternoon and just said she was gone. I literally dropped everything in my hands and Rich and I went over there. My brother, her dad and my mom was there at the house with her..not in the room with her but there at the house. I kissed her good-bye and told her I loved her and just cried.
Rich, my mom and I had the job of getting the older kids out of school. You want to talk about hard. Having to go pick up Brenda's 14 yr old daughter from school. The principal and the counselor was with us, or the counselor went to get Hailey from class, Hailey knew. She was walking down the hall crying and just fell into Rich's arms and just sobbed. She said that she missed the bus that morning and Andy told her if she just wanted to stay home, she could, she decided to go ahead and go to school. That tore her up even more.
My brother told my 4 yr old nephew last night that mommy went to heaven to become an angel. Dominic fell apart he cried and sobbed for his momma. He got up this morning and him and Hailey, Hailey was helping him write a letter/song to his momma and he was going to mail it to her in heaven.
My older nephew the 14 yr old is having a hard time because he doesn't understand why people are laughing. Rich's sister was there at the house last night and she talked with him and just explained it the best she could how we aren't happy that shes gone but we do have to remember to talk about her and to laugh. I think he is having a harder time than what he is letting on. After we got back to the house yestreday I went to hug him and the child just about knocked me down hugging me. He wants his mom so bad, his mom lives out of state. He has called her A LOT the last few days I just so much want to have her come back here to be with him but she can't afford the trip back here.
Thank you again everyone ((hugs))