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Powerless over food?

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Subject: Admitted we were powerless over food. That our lives had become unmanageable.

I had a real problem with that because I did not want to admit that I had no power. I had always learned that you have power over anything in your life. This line threw me for a loop. The more I read about food addition, the more I realized that food is my alcohol and as an alcoholic, I do not have control over my addiction to food. I did sneak out late a night to buy sweets at Mc Donald’s and Taco Bell. I send everyone to bed so I can eat in peace. I eat late in the evening around 10 pm when the house is quiet. I am a junkie and I am on the verge of admitting it. I read that food to an addict causing a physiological change in the body chemistry and carbohydrates creates the secretion of serotonin which combats stress and give you a feeling of peace. This peace is temporary however . I also read that Carbohydrates cause craving for more carbohydrates and it is a vicious cycle. It is not my fault BUT, I can make a choice to control it just like a junkie can make a choice, just like an alcoholic can make a choice. The choice comes with first accepting that I am powerless over food, that my life has become unmanageable.
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  • SMYLEERED
    That first step isn't easy, admitting that we're powerless over food and our lives have become unmanageable. You did admit it, you wrote it. We can't change the things around us but we can be changed inside. There's no cure for compulsive overeating, we need control offered at OA meetings. Others come here to SparkPeople and post their foods every day to be accountable. It's a matter of your own personal choice. I think you'll find support here in SP, but keep searching if you don't think this is enough.
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  • SHAREDJOURNEY
    I have always thought that giving up a substance is easier than limiting the portions. Can you imagine an alcoholic drinking in moderation daily? We must eat to live and therefore have to learn to overcome the impulse to overeat rather than to avoid eating. Late night eating is my worst problem. I am rarely hungry during the day no matter if I eat or not. I felt powerless over food until I began SP. I have learned some strategies that work for me.
    Starting at 4 PM I start to get uncontrollably hungry and if I control myself and don't eat until dinner I am fine for a few hours. The later I stay up the hungrier I get. We all have unique bodies and need to learn to deal with the inner rhythms they have. I have always allowed myself to eat vegetables at anytime of the day or night without guilt. No, they are not the foods I am craving but they have enough bulk to make me full enough to stop a binge. A large salad still has only 100 calories without dressing and can usually fit in my calorie limits without a problem.
    Years ago I had a friend who had night eating problems and felt compelled to put tempting foods out of the house each night to avoid binging. There are lots of ways of overcoming this problem. If these aren't for you, keep reading on SP or posting and someone will have just the ticket that will get you feeling under control. Wishing you well on this journey we are on.
    4512 days ago
  • BUFFALOGAL1952
    I feel your pain. I had to come to terms with being a "closet eater". Always hiding the foods, mostly snacks, that I was eating. Never letting my husband see me eat them. I don't know if I thought that if he didn't see me the calories wouldn't count??? But as the weight continued to pour on, I became more depressed about it. Finally a friend told me about Spark People. I have come out of the closet so to speak and am learning to eat right, and enjoying it! You are so right. It is your choice whether you commit to taking control of the food and making yourself healthier and thinner or continue to let the food control you. The first step is accepting responsibility for your actions. Starting with Spark People put you on the right track. Good luck with your journey!
    4512 days ago
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