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Monday, November 03, 2008

Hello well i have decided to return and not before time I don't know what happened to me i just lost interest and consequently i have gained so much weight that i am in pain almost all the time because of it, my Dr offered me the chance of having a gastric band and i thought oh great that is the easy way out and just started to eat like there was no tomorrow, if they do consider me for surgery it will not be until next year and if i carry on eating the way i am i will be dead before then, so here i am back with my tail between my legs feeling pretty disgusted with myself.

I am now heavier than i was when i first joined sparks 3 years ago so i gained back all i lost and then some more on top, it is very uncomfortable walking is nigh on imposable now and the pain i am in because of it is one of the reasons i decided i must come back and start over.

So i am back at stage one and hope to show a good loss by this time next week, i need all the help i can get my motivation levels are very low my health is in a very bad way because of the self abuse of eating al the wrong things, i learnt nothing in the 2 and a half years i was here because i went back to those same bad eating patterns that brought me to sparks in the first place so here i am hoping that this time around i will learn the lesson and get healthy once and for all....

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  • LAURIE160IN2013
    Hi Tricia!
    Welcome back! And thank you for telling us about your experience. Sometimes we can learn from other people's experiences; other times we just need to find out for ourselves, right?
    I think many of us have given up at some point and ended up worse than before, so you're not alone. I'm learning that this is a constant struggle even to stay in the same place, but if that's what it takes, fine--it's better than giving up and regretting it later. This applies not only to weight loss but to life itself--negativity just leads to more negativity.
    Exercise helps for me. I had to start very slow because I got so out of shape after surgery and then working day and night. But I did some gentle exercises and am now well enough to do something fun--walking/stepping/dancing on the mini trampoline to YouTube tunes at home.
    Also, writing down my food gives me a feeling of accomplishment--I can see that I stuck to my goals each day. Hooray!
    Sorry your motivation levels are low. What would it take to bring them up just a bit and make things positive for you?
    Remember, we're pulling for you.
    Laurie R.
    4408 days ago
    Welcome back

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    4408 days ago
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