I am back
Monday, November 03, 2008
Hello well i have decided to return and not before time I don't know what happened to me i just lost interest and consequently i have gained so much weight that i am in pain almost all the time because of it, my Dr offered me the chance of having a gastric band and i thought oh great that is the easy way out and just started to eat like there was no tomorrow, if they do consider me for surgery it will not be until next year and if i carry on eating the way i am i will be dead before then, so here i am back with my tail between my legs feeling pretty disgusted with myself.
I am now heavier than i was when i first joined sparks 3 years ago so i gained back all i lost and then some more on top, it is very uncomfortable walking is nigh on imposable now and the pain i am in because of it is one of the reasons i decided i must come back and start over.
So i am back at stage one and hope to show a good loss by this time next week, i need all the help i can get my motivation levels are very low my health is in a very bad way because of the self abuse of eating al the wrong things, i learnt nothing in the 2 and a half years i was here because i went back to those same bad eating patterns that brought me to sparks in the first place so here i am hoping that this time around i will learn the lesson and get healthy once and for all....