Trying to get back into the swing of things...
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Hopefully now, I will be back for good. I've been through some tough times lately, but now things are getting back to normal.
Three weeks ago, I had to put my dog Duke to sleep. He was 13. He was the best friend I could ever ask for and I will always miss him. Since August he had gotten sick (and recovered) with a variety of illnesses (kidney failure, seizures, vestibular disease, in addition to his 2 plus year battle with Valley Fever). Over the past few months, he had gotten better and was a whole new dog. He didn't act 13. He acted healthy. It was great. Then on one Sunday night, he suddenly got ill. I thought it was his kidneys, like before, and I sat with him all night. When I took him to the vet in the morning, the tests came back negative, his kidneys were fine. Since his health had failed so severly within less than 10 hours, and since the vet was not able to find the culprit, I decided it was only fair to him to put him to sleep and not put him through any more stress. It was the hardest decision I EVER had to make, but I felt it was the right one. I believe even without the shot, within several hours he would have passed on his own. At least I spared him the pain of his last hours, which I could see were getting worse.
I am thankful that everything went as well as it did. And I am thankful it was not worse. I am thankful for the time I got to spend with my best friend. It has been three and a half weeks. I am trying to get the rest of my life back to "normal." My pup Cuddles has been a great companion to me during these hard times, I can tell he is sad about losing Duke too.
I've gained a few pounds. I've probably done a bit of emotional eating and NO exercise in the past few weeks. And Halloween didn't help! I would like to lose the couple pounds I gained, and complete my weight loss journey, getting to my goal of 160. I was able to buy a size 10 dress at David's Bridal, and apparently their dresses run small. (I do have to say I was a little offended when I told the lady my pants size was 12 and she gave me a size 12 and a size 14 to try on...I know I've put on a few pounds, but I'm not a 14 anymore...needless to say I proved her wrong when I got the 10. I swear it's all in my hips...well a little in my stomach too.)
So I am back, and here's to a new year. (I know it's only November, but here's to a new year anyways.) I have a lot of trips and events planned for next year, and I would like to be at goal weight for them. (Mini getaway for 2 days for my birthday to Castles N Coasters and a few fun museums in Phoenix with my boyfriend in December, road trip to Disneyland in Janurary, Bridal shower and wedding in Florida in February and March - I am the Maid of Honor, and a possible trip to Jamaica or Mexico with my work.)
I have a lot to look forward to, and a lot to be thankful for. And seeing as it's Thanksgiving, let's be thankful. It was a long hard year, but I am thankful it was not any worse. I know I am only given challenges in life that I can handle, if I couldn't handle them, they wouldn't be given to me. I am also thankful for all my friends, in real life and here is SP. Even though I haven't been online a lot, I think often about all my sparkfriends.
I put up a few new pics, mostly of the pups. I also put one up of the bridesmaid's dress for the wedding, only it will be in clover green. Which is a lot better than the original lime green that the bride wanted (thank you David's Bridal for not carrying all the dresses in all the colors). And I am thankful she didn't pick pink dresses (the wedding colors are green and pink). But she wants silver shoes, which have been a little hard to come by. Most of the silver shoes I have found look horrid. But I know that out there, some where, is the perfect pair of silver shoes for me.
Until next time...