Having a rough time lately

Friday, January 02, 2009

So for a while I was fitting into a 9/10 jean from a JR store. UGHH Today, i had to pull out my 12;s. I am facing the fact that I have put on weight. :( I will not allow myself to get back to what i was August 2006. I kept it off for over a year and a half (took me that long to lose it), so I am not going to let it creep back up. I just need to get my butt back to the gym. I will get up at 5am if i have to. UGHH...Better start going to bed earlier. I can't let myself be that fat, lonely, miserable person anymore.

I noticed that i am a little more outgoing now, than I was 2 years ago. I am still pretty quiet, but I carry myself differently. I don't want to go back to that fat shell of emotions. :( I can't believe i let myself gain again. Up almost 20 lbs from march last year. UGHHHHHH
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  • KSSME39
    Hang in there, Karen. I sure do identify with you. Thank you for your honesty. It seems so unfair that weight comes off our bodies SO SLOWLY and then comes back on so easily! I hit my lowest ever adult weight of 168 back in February last year and now I am up to 177. It doesn't sound too bad, but the guilt of having extra pounds is so hard! I had SO wanted to hit my goal weight by the time I turned 40 (which was Cmas day), but I didn't do it. I have questioned myself at least a thousand times! What's wrong with me? My motivation? Why do I do this? Why can't I get back on track? Do I really want to stay big? ETC, ETC!

    I would love to keep in touch with you and try to help each other through this journey if you're up for it! Karen

    4109 days ago
  • KRIBBY101
    I am sure you can do it (especially since you know what to do)!
    4111 days ago
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