Having a rough time lately
Friday, January 02, 2009
So for a while I was fitting into a 9/10 jean from a JR store. UGHH Today, i had to pull out my 12;s. I am facing the fact that I have put on weight. :( I will not allow myself to get back to what i was August 2006. I kept it off for over a year and a half (took me that long to lose it), so I am not going to let it creep back up. I just need to get my butt back to the gym. I will get up at 5am if i have to. UGHH...Better start going to bed earlier. I can't let myself be that fat, lonely, miserable person anymore.
I noticed that i am a little more outgoing now, than I was 2 years ago. I am still pretty quiet, but I carry myself differently. I don't want to go back to that fat shell of emotions. :( I can't believe i let myself gain again. Up almost 20 lbs from march last year. UGHHHHHH