unlearning, unsure, understanding

Friday, January 02, 2009

My journey to health via SparkPeople has been keen on my inner world. Weight has been an issue but the healing of my inner self has been predominating. This was a surprise to me. emoticonI expected to work on exercise and food yet I found that SparkPeople has been critical to my inner healing. WOW I am so thankful.

UNLEARNING: I have been focusing on unlearning some mindsets, paradigms (really like that word), and habits.... Ya'll all know about that. In order to unlearn, I have had to identify what behavior s needed to be unlearned. Major OUCH.

UNSURE: Honestly, I am so unsure about quality of my past path. It is a part of my OCD to ruminate upon what I have or haven't done in the past. Did I do well? Did I harm? Did I enrich or did I tear down? AND what about the future: will I be the spouse, daughter, momma, the therapist, the sister that is needed? Will I think before acting and speaking?

UNDERSTANDING: Slowly I understand that I must leave the examination of my past actions so that I may focus on the present and the future only one day at a time. I must stop my addiction to thinking, to actions, to passiveness; as these behaviors prevents me from actualizing ME. I understand that what I fear most of all is being ME. Fear has interfered with the development of ME. So I begin to work towards being ME by loving myself enough to be:

A healthy ME, a happy ME, an honorable ME.

Love is the opposite of Fear.

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    Very nice thoughts
    4075 days ago
  • CHAS1949
    As usual, sage thoughts
    4076 days ago
    This was beautiful, and oh so true!
    4077 days ago
    We can change and evolve from the inside - out (via therapy, etc.) AND from the OUTSIDE - IN: that's where SparkPeople comes into play. Why not take advantage of BOTH methods of healing, changing...? :-)

    Sometimes *acting as if* one is empowered, strong, in control (i.e. working out, making good food choices, supporting each other here at SP) can lead us toward feeling this way on the INSIDE TOO!

    WTG on your continually evolving, ever-better self!

    4102 days ago
    Princess - you are awesome. I just kept nodding my head as I read this blog. Yep, it's been a lot like that for me too. Thanks for sharing this. emoticon emoticon
    4103 days ago
    MY first visit to your sparkpage... I LOVE IT! Great blog, today, BTW, and I see by your other titles you seem to be working your way through the alphabet... up to U today, LOL! I can hardly wait to see the three 'V's'

    Your ID caught my eye, because, see, I ALSO am a Princess from Texas! My blog in the world outside Sparkdom is called Becoming Princess Phatso... check it out sometime! (
    R>Meanwhile ya'll are looking FABOO, darlin'! Cannot wait to see what 2009 brings us!
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    4106 days ago
    That is a great blog! You are right! SP has been instrumental in helping me find myself. Good luck on the exciting trip you are taking! Let me know when I can help, when I can give you a boost you need!
    4106 days ago
    Wonderful! You are learning and growing by leaps and bounds. Peace - Kathleen
    4107 days ago
    4107 days ago
    Neat post :) Food for thought!

    Elane emoticon
    4107 days ago

    Wonderful insight! I am SURE you are on the right path to healing your inner self. Enjoy the journey with all of its hills and valleys because it will be the most beautiful journey you ever take.... the one to YOU.

    4107 days ago
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