Its Time To Believe In Myself!
Sunday, January 04, 2009
In September 2007 I joined SP. I made a commitment to myself to lose the unhealthy weight on my body and be healthy and strong again for me. I started at 209.5 lbs and by Christmas of 2007 I had lost 30lbs. Then my body went on a plateau and my motivation started going down hill. On top of that I let the stress that was going on in my life affect my weight yet again and started going back into my old habits of not exercising and eating unhealthy. By May of 2008 I had stopped signing on to SP. Thanks to the wonderful support of my SP friends I dragged myself back on SP over the summer and I found that I had gained 10lbs. Determined yet again to get the weight off and get myself back on track I started back on the healthy track but it didn't last long and the yoyoing started again. I would go up 2, down 3 up, down 2, up 4 and so on. Last Wednesday reality kicked in again when I got on that scale to find I am back at 204.
I stood on that scale and tears rolled down my eyes. How could I let myself get back into the 200s, how could of I let myself gain this weight back, go back into my old "bad" habits and let the fat win??? It seems like its a never ending battle with me, an uphill battle I need to beat. I look at my naked body in the mirror and I don't like what i see. I need to BELIEVE in the person I see, I need to like her inside and out.
Since my last weigh in on Dec. 31st I have been eating better, not the best I should be but I am getting there. I know that what I need to do is track my food, that's where my success lies because without tracking my food I am just setting myself up for failure. I did get the WiiFit for Christmas and absolutely LOVE it. I have been using it for at least an hour a day and get good workouts from it. Love the way it pushes me to better my scores.
So from here out in its time to find that strong person inside of me that joined SP on 9/2007 and BELIEVE in myself again that I DESERVE THIS!
Oh one more thing I have to thank 2 sets of groups, My SAHM's Yahoo group who are always there for me and The Pearls Team on SP, its because of the Pearls that i haven't given up on myself and still belong to SP. Both of these groups are a huge part of the support in my life! Much Love & Hugs To You All!
Here's To Moving Forward!
I BELIEVE I CAN DO THIS!