Its Time To Believe In Myself!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

In September 2007 I joined SP. I made a commitment to myself to lose the unhealthy weight on my body and be healthy and strong again for me. I started at 209.5 lbs and by Christmas of 2007 I had lost 30lbs. Then my body went on a plateau and my motivation started going down hill. On top of that I let the stress that was going on in my life affect my weight yet again and started going back into my old habits of not exercising and eating unhealthy. By May of 2008 I had stopped signing on to SP. Thanks to the wonderful support of my SP friends I dragged myself back on SP over the summer and I found that I had gained 10lbs. Determined yet again to get the weight off and get myself back on track I started back on the healthy track but it didn't last long and the yoyoing started again. I would go up 2, down 3 up, down 2, up 4 and so on. Last Wednesday reality kicked in again when I got on that scale to find I am back at 204.

I stood on that scale and tears rolled down my eyes. How could I let myself get back into the 200s, how could of I let myself gain this weight back, go back into my old "bad" habits and let the fat win??? It seems like its a never ending battle with me, an uphill battle I need to beat. I look at my naked body in the mirror and I don't like what i see. I need to BELIEVE in the person I see, I need to like her inside and out.

Since my last weigh in on Dec. 31st I have been eating better, not the best I should be but I am getting there. I know that what I need to do is track my food, that's where my success lies because without tracking my food I am just setting myself up for failure. I did get the WiiFit for Christmas and absolutely LOVE it. I have been using it for at least an hour a day and get good workouts from it. Love the way it pushes me to better my scores.

So from here out in its time to find that strong person inside of me that joined SP on 9/2007 and BELIEVE in myself again that I DESERVE THIS!

Oh one more thing I have to thank 2 sets of groups, My SAHM's Yahoo group who are always there for me and The Pearls Team on SP, its because of the Pearls that i haven't given up on myself and still belong to SP. Both of these groups are a huge part of the support in my life! Much Love & Hugs To You All!

Here's To Moving Forward!


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  • SKAYT77
    Suz we've all been down that road.. but we stick together & keep coming back. I know we can do this! We just need to learn that taking care of ourselves is just as important as taking care of all the other things in our lives!

    Big hugs & always here for you!

    3738 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3620055

    I know exactly where you are coming from. I have done the same thing in the past and it is devastating when it happens. I know you will get the weight off and keep it off. You are exercising and eating healthier and those 2 together is a recipe for a loss. Keep your chin up and know that your friends are here for you to help you make it through this. I know you can do this, I have faith in you.
    Big hugs
    4101 days ago
    ((((HUGS)))) We can do this!
    4105 days ago
  • JUDITH1654
    Yes, Suzzz, you CAN do it and I have all the confidence in the world in you. I totally understand how you feel because I've been going through a little of that myself....up .4, then down .6, etc. I've joined the Boot camp and another challenge team. Unfortunately, I've been sick since just after Christmas so though my heart is willing, my body isn't.

    We've missed you terribly at Committed Lifers but if we weren't supportive enough for you, I truly apologize. Know that you will always be welcomed back and if not, I still urge you to do what is right for YOU and hope you'll stop by now and then to say hi.

    Hang in there, Girl! I know you can do it.

    4105 days ago
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