The New Year
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I have struggled on my journey. I have hit MANY bumps in the road. But I'm still here and I'm still trying. If there is anything can be said for me it's that I AM NOT A QUITTER!!!
I have had some big set backs this past year. I have a bum foot that has me limited on the type of exercise I can do. I just recently bought a stationary bike to help get some cardio back into my life.
Stress has reared it's ugly head time and time again. I'm still looking for ways to put it to rest.
I like to think of myself as a strong person, but am finding it difficult to believe. Weakness has become my constant companion as of late. I'm finding it more and more difficult to be strong. It seems that for every step forward I take I end up taking 4 steps backwards. When I started here at SP I had about 30 lbs to lose. And I did well. I lost 25 of those lbs. But here I sit having gain all of that weight back, PLUS a few extra lbs. No I am not proud of myself. I am rather disappointed to say the least.
BUT I haven't given up yet!
The New Year, for me, will be a fresh start. I will admit that is is not starting out that well. I know it won't be easy to get back to it. But I will take baby steps. I will take it one day at a time. One change at a time. It may take me a bit longer to reach my goals. But I WILL reach them. This is a journey, not a race. I have the rest of my life to make good on my promises to myself.
I vow to be nicer to myself. AND I will give this journey time to grow.
BUT most of all I WILL NOT STOP until the journey ends. And LIFE is my journey!!!