LYNNBELTONLOSES
2,500-3,999 SparkPoints 2,832
SparkPoints
 

"WHY I DID IT": A passionate letter response to "BABYLOVE818"...

Thursday, February 26, 2009

The following is the comment and note that I left on "BABYLOVE818" s page in response to the comment she posted on my page on 2-25-2009:

"HEY GURL??? HI AND THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR WRITING THOSE NICE WORDS ON MY PAGE. I AM BOTH GLAD AND GRATIFIED THAT I CAN BE AN "INSPIRATION" TO YOU. ALSO CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU FOR LOSING THEM 31 POUNDS SO FAR, YOU GO GURL!!! (YAY YOU!!!)

HONEY, YOU AN I KNOW THIS AINT EASY. THIS JOURNEY HAS TAUGHT ME MUCH ABOUT MYSELF BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY MORE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE; SPECIFICALLY WOMEN THAT MIGHT HAVE SEEMED AT FIRST VERY DIFFERENT FROM ME BUT HAVE PROVEN TO BE VERY SIMILAR. GURL, I HAVE DISCOVERED THAT WHERE YOUR MIND GOES, YOUR BODY WILL FOLLOW SOOOOOOOOO, BODY IMAGING HAS PROVEN TO BE A VERY EFFECTIVE TOOL IN MY OVERALL "FAT RELEASING PROGRAM". I HAVE VOWED THAT THE FAT THAT I REMOVE FROM MY BODY (HOPEFULLY) ON A DAILY BASIS, WON'T EVER EVER RETURN TO ME; THAT IS SOMETHING THAT I RECITE TO MYSELF SEVERAL TIMES EACH AND EVERY DAY GURL NO MATTER IF I HAVE A WEIGHTLOSS SUCCESS THAT DAY (LOSE SOME WEIGHT) OR IF I DON'T.
GURL I'M GONNA TELL YOU STRAIGHT. I DON'T HAVE MONEY FOR A FANCY GYM MEMBERSHIP AND I CAN'T AFFORD WEIGHTLOSS DRUGS OR WEIGHTLOSS DOCTORS OR NOTHING LIKE THAT ( IF I DID I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE USED THEM AN GURL I KNOW THAY AINT HEALTHY BUT YOU KNOW HOW US WOMEN IS). I DID (AND AM DOING) THIS WEIGHT LOSS THING USING MY OWN RESOURCES, DETERMINATION AND SWEAT (SEE MY "HOW LYNN DID IT" BLOG ON MY PAGE GURL).
WHAT I CAN TELL YOU IS THAT I CRIED TEARS THAT CONTINUED ON WELL INTO NEW YEARS DAY 2008 THAT WERE LEFTOVER FROM THE PREVIOUS NIGHT - OVER A WAY TOO TIGHT (EVEN WITH THE GIRDLE GURL) "LITTLE BLACK DRESS" (LOL IF YOU CAN BELIVE THAT TITLE) THAT WAS AN INCREDIBLE SIZE 28, THAT SIMPLY PUT JUST "BURSTED" WHILE I WAS TRYNA SQUEEZE MY FAT ASS INTO THE CAR TO LEAVE MY HOUSE THAT NEW YEARS EVE NIGHT TO ATTEND A CELEBRATION WITH MY GYRLS.
I FELT CRUSHED AND EMBARRASED. I RETREATED TO MY BED AND WITH RIPPED EVENING DRESS STILL ON, PULLED UP AND HID UNDER MY COVERS FROM THE WHOLE WORLD.
THE NEXT DAY I HAD THE STRENGTH TO CLIMP OUTTA BED, WALK INTO THE BATHROOM ONLY TO STEP ONTO THAT SCALE TO DISCOVER THE EQUALLY DEVISTATING NEWS THAT I HAD LET MYSELF GO SOOOO BADLY THAT I WAS NOW A WHOOPING 324 DAYUM POUNDS!!!!!
I LOOKED UP INTO THE MIRROR GURL AN YOU KNOW I JUST WANTED TO DIE, LOL RIGHT????
TODAY GURL I LOOK BACK AND SAY THAT I WAS SO THANKFUL FOR THAT DAY. THE WAKE UP CALL I RECEIVED GAVE ME THE STRENGTH AND THE COURAGE TO SAY, " OH HELL NO, I'M GONNA LOSE THIS
_ _ _ _ _ _ WEIGHT ONCE AND FOR ALL!!! I CAN REMEMBER RIPPING OFF THE (VERY EXPENSIVE) 350.00 DRESS, THROWIN MY HAIR IN A PONY TAIL, PUTTIN ON SUM UNFLATTERING SWEATS AND SNEAKERS, AND DRIVING OUT TO MY LOCAL SPORTING GOODS STORE SHEARLY WITH DESPARATE WEIGHT LOSS ON MY MIND.

GURL, LOL I ARRIVED THERE TRYNA OPEN THA DOOR AT 9:55; THEY WEREN'T EVEN OPEN YET. SO I WAITED IN MY CAR FOR OVER TWO WHOLE HOURS AND THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT I KNEW I HAD TO DO IN ORDER TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND SAVE MY LIFE.
WHEN THE STORE OPENED AT NOON, I WAS THE FIRST PERSON TO SET FOOT INTO THIS HALLOWED PLACE(YES HONEY BELIEVE IT OR NOT, THIS HALLOWED PLACE WOULD BE A SPORTING GOODS STORE-GO FIGURE-NO PUN INTENDED)
IN THIS, A NEW YEAR. I MADE A PROMISE TO MYSELF RIGHT THEN AND THERE THAT "SPORTING WORLD" WOULD BE MY SPECIAL PLACE. THIS WOULD BE MY NEW LIFE. THIS WOULD BE THE BIRTH OF THE "NEW LYNN." I WILL SPEND ALOT OF TIME HERE - IN THIS PLACE, I TOLD MYSELF, STROLLING DOWN THE SPORTING GOOD ISLES IN MUCH THE SAME MANOR THAT FOR YEARS I'VE STROLLED DOWN THE GROCERY STORE ISLES - NOT REALIZTNG THAT I WAS ONLY MAKING MYSELF "FAT" AND "FATTER" BY NOT SELECTING "HEALTHY FOODS" TO EAT.
EAGER TO GET STARTED I WENT AND GOT MY CART, MAKING SURE TO GUIDE IT DOWN EACH AND EVERY ISLE, EVEN IF I KNEW THAT I WASN'T NEEDING A THING DOWN THAT ISLE I STILL WOULD WANDER THERE. WHAT AN INSPIRATION THIS JOURNEY WAS FOR ME AND OMG GURL BY THE TIME I GOT TO CHECKOUT, MY CART WAS OVERFLOWING WITH ALL KINDS OF WEIGHT LOSS GOODIES THAT TOTALED JUST OVER 400.00 (LOL A LITTLE MORE EXPENSIVE THAN MY RIPPED 350.00 DESIGNER EVENING DRESS THAT LAY IN SHREDS AT HOME IN MY GARBAGE CAN).
THE PLEASANT SOUND OF THE YOUNG CASHIER SAYIN TO ME IN HER SOFT, LITTLE VOICE, "HAPPY NEW YEAR MISS, THAT WILL BE FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY THREE DOLLARS AND SIXTY NINE CENT", BROUGHT A WARM SMILE TO MY FACE FOLLOWED CLOSELY BY A LONELY, SLOW ROLLING TEAR.
I KNEW NOW THAT THERE WAS NO TURNING BACK - NO RETREAT; AS I HAD TRIED AND FAILED AND TRIED AGAIN AND RE-FAILED MANY TIMES OVER MANY YEARS BEFORE, THIS TIME WOULD BE VERY DIFFERENT. THIS WOULD BE THE MOMENT THAT EVERYTHING FOREVER CHANGED IN MY LIFE. I WAS FINALLY GONNA BE,
"LOSIN THIS WEIGHT FOR GOOD...."
GURL, SO THIS IS MY STORY AND I'M SO HAPPY TODAY TO SAY TO YOU AND TO THE WHOLE WORLD THAT A LITTLE OVER 13 MONTHS LATER (AND SEVERAL TEARS SHED) I HAVE " PERMANENTLY RELEASED 80 POUNDS OF UNHEALTHY FAT FROM MY BODY " (AND COUNTING) AND I FEEL GREAT!!! (YAY ME!!!)
THIS LIFE CHANGING WEIGHTLOSS JOURNEY HAS TAKEN ME FROM A WHOOPING 324 POUNDS DOWN TO A MUCH HEALTHIER, SLIMMER 244 POUNDS (AND GURL, I AINT DONE YET OK????) I DON'T KNOW WHEN I'LL BE ABLE TO REACH MY ULTIMATE GOAL WEIGHT OF 182 POUNDS AND FRANKLY GURL I DON'T EVEN CARE BECAUSE THE WEIGHT LOSS IS SLOWING NOW BUT I DO KNOW A FEW THINGS; I AM WELL ON MY WAY AND "AINT NO STOPPIN ME NOW!!!" I WILL NEVER EVER GO BACK TO THE "OLD FAT, UNHEALTHY ME" AND ONE DAY I WILL ARRIVE.

YOU BABYLOVE818:
YOU CAN DO THIS GURL, OK???
YOU WILL DO THIS GURL!!!
YOU WILL LOSE ALL THAT WEIGHT MAMA; ALL THEM EXCESS, BULGING POUNDS AN INCHES OF UNHEALTHY FAT WILL DISSAPEAR FROM YOUR BODY; PERMANENTLY EVACUATED - NEVER AGAIN TO BE REJOINED WITH YOU.
NOW YOU JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE IT, SEE IT, CLAIM IT, CRY IT, SMELL IT, EAT IT, FEEL IT, LOOK IT and BE IT!!!
SO GO NOW AN JUST DO IT; LOSE THAT UNHEALTHY WEIGHT FOR GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH - FOR YOUR LIFE, FOR YOUR FAMILY;
FOR YOU.

AND FURTHER MAMA, IF YOU TRUELY DEVOUR IT EVERY SECOND OF EVERY HOUR, EVERYDAY OF EVERY WEEK OF EVERY MONTH OF EVERY YEAR FOR THE REST OF YOUR ENTIRE LIFE; ACCEPTING THIS HEALTHY CHANGE TO BE PERMANENT AND BINDING, YOU WILL ACHIEVE IT; THE POUNDS WILL MELT and THE INCHES WILL SHRINK. YOU WILL BE GIVEN THE PRECIOUS GIFT OF "GOOD HEALTH AND A PHYSICALLY FIT, TONED BODY"


MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU ALONG YOUR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY GURL.

sincerely,
~lynn
(yahoo im: belton_lynn)"

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • GETTINGDIVABACK
    This is so inspirational, you are such a great supporter Lynn! I appreciate you! emoticon emoticon
    2184 days ago
  • MADISON35
    girl this is the most motivating story i have read . i can relate in so many ways never in my wildest dreams i would be over 300 lbs and my goal which 185 seems so far ways but reading this makes me realize that i can do it. god bless you and thank you so much for sharing
    3941 days ago
  • YBPHAT
    OK.... I am commenting with tears streaming down my face Lynn, I can completely relate to your story. You are amazing, and I am so happy that you have made a remarkable difference in your life and you are making a diffence in the lives of others. I am motivated to release my unwanted fat and join you on this "healthy weight mission". emoticon
    3944 days ago
  • DIVINEKITTYKAT
    Diva-sista-girl, I cried as I read this wonderfully, blessed blog entry of yours. I have felt your shame, your defeat, and your despair. I, now, want to feel that glory, hope, determination, and success that you are now feeling! I have run across some inspiring and encouraging folks on here, but YOU, Mz. Thang, are a bonafide role model :)! Your words in this entry will always ring true and forever in my head and my heart. I don't even know you, but girlfriend, I would love the opportunity to get to know you and become a support and true friend. Please contace me when you can at divinekittykat@gmail.com. I soooooo... look forward to hearing from you! Always, Kat
    4004 days ago
  • GOODRIDDANCE60
    Dear Lynn, you have been there for me off and on through the the years and I have given up more times then I can count. I knew coming back to Spark and coming to your page would remind me why I do this, need to do this and can do this! As others have said I am typing through tear filled eyes and thinking My God what a wonderful woman, what a wonderful success story and well this is it my journey begins once again and for the final time! And yes, Yay to you and Bless you!
    4016 days ago
  • MRSRICH300
    You can't imagine how inspiring this is too me at such a time when everything is so wrong in my life!! Thanks for sharing this is more helpful to more people than you know.
    4061 days ago
  • SOMATRA
    I think the fact that we are all still commenting on this blog a year after you wrote it pretty much says it all.
    4061 days ago
  • JULIACYAN1
    You are so amazing!
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4062 days ago
  • no profile photo CD107475
    I just read this story and my heart is full. You have just put into words so many of us here on this blog.....Thank You!

    melissa
    4063 days ago
  • JUICYGRL
    WOW, I saw one of my SparkBuddies HoneyLuv101 had commented on a blog and this title caught my attention. I know that you wrote this blog for one person, but it has touched so many (myself included). So many times I wonder if it will be me, when it will be me? Experiences like yours make this journey a little easier for me and I thank you for that! Thank you for sharing this!


    4063 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6102477
    I can't stop crying. I can totally relate to how you felt. Losing weight for me is a very emotional journey for me but your blog is so uplifting. I can't wait to get up in the morning and workout. Thank you for this honest and moving story. It has truly touch me.
    4063 days ago
  • PRIN1978
    I am so proud of you. Reading this story made me cry. Just reading this story reminds me of my older sister. I want to help her, but she needs to see it for herself. I would like her to read your blog so that it can probably inspire her that their are real people out there; especially beautiful black women, sweatin' blood and tears to lose weight and they are doing it. Keep up the great work and I'll keep u in my prayers to help reach your goal! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4064 days ago
  • CSHELL75
    I'm so glad that this blog is still up. God is truly using you. Keep on inspiring others. emoticon
    4085 days ago
  • JUST4ME2KNOW
    you are such a inspiration...it empowered me ...thanks for being so transparent!!!!!!!!!!!!!May God continue to bless u on this journey..
    4158 days ago
  • RAVEN227
    you are truly an inspiration!!!
    4165 days ago
  • TOYABDAZZLED
    That was so inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing this with us all. You lift me up, and let me know that I can do this! I will do this! Thank you for being so honest, so strong, and so motivating!
    4244 days ago
  • BEAUTYCREATED
    This is SOOO inspiring Thanx girl!!
    4247 days ago
  • FELICIA327
    Oh my Goodness! I'm sitting here overwhelmed from the words you wrote. I am now more sure than ever that I CAN DO THIS!!!!!! I can't thank you enough for letting God use you to help so many others... You are being used by the Lord!! GO ON GURL!!!!! emoticon
    4317 days ago
  • CBJAZI
    This blog is so inspiring. Your passion and strength and determination paints a picture for us all. Thank you for the fight in you and for sharing it with the world. Hold on to what you've got. Don't ever give up. My model in life is "if we're not moving forward, we're moving backwards....never just standing still". Keep your forward movement forward as I can see you will clearly bring a lot of people along with you, inspiring them to find the strength and determination to start and finish their journey!
    Thanks for sharing
    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4330 days ago
  • JESTINGBEAUTY
    Ok, I cried thru this whole thing. I wont even lie and say it was a little bit, I had to wipe the tears rolling down my cheeks just to be able to see it. You are a true inspiration to all women who have gotten to the point where they want to roll up and die. Thank you for having the courage to share this very emotional time of your life with everyone that may or may not be able to relate to it. You rock!
    4365 days ago
  • REDANDTHREE
    We all have that moment in time when life just slaps you in the face and I thank you for sharing your slap with everyone. Your story shows how much courage and strength you possess and is an inspiration to all.
    4368 days ago
  • EMPOWEREDN09
    You are a force to be reckoned with. Thanks for sharing your passionate story. It has motivated me to dig deeper. I say I want to loose weight and live healthier. But I do not live it the way that you do. You have inspired me to step of my game.

    Lynn, thank you! emoticon
    4374 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/23/2009 8:48:55 AM
  • SABOR_CHIC
    Lynn..you are blessed!! I heart you girlie!! xo¢¾
    4382 days ago
  • KLOVELYJ
    Oh my GOD girl! I feel like I just watched one of my good ole based on a true story lifetime movies. Girl you touched me and that spirit you have I'm loving it. YOU GO GIRL! You Bangin Honey!
    4393 days ago
  • GEOGIAGIRL2
    Lynn, thank you so much for your story. I too am at the point where I am tired and ready for a change in my life. Keep up the good work.
    Georgiagirl
    4404 days ago
  • PNKPASSION
    Girl, I felt like I was in church, the way your blog touched me.
    I love it Lynn and you are proof, and you are amazing!
    4416 days ago
  • RASLALIQUE
    You are one inspiring lady! Congratulations on the success you have had so far. Thanks for the reminder to be consistent.
    4417 days ago
  • POETICGOLD
    Great words of wisdom, great inspiration! Much success, girl! emoticon
    4417 days ago
  • PRESHAHORTON
    All I can say is wow. I know my husband looks at me when I buy fitness stuff over and over even if I use it for a short while I still have to build a new lifestyle and by the looks of your progress it is well worth it. I just keep telling myself consistency is key.

    Keep doing it mama healthy looks good on you...... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4418 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/10/2009 11:02:20 AM
  • TMA1913
    Lynn- this is awesome! I really appreciate the encouragment! You really are a special person! Keep up the good work!

    tma1913
    4421 days ago
  • MZSASSY
    THAT STORRY HELPED ME AND I AM DETEREMINED TO MAKE THIS STICK FOR ME.
    4423 days ago
  • SWEETMOSEY
    Your words were so encouraging. I get so discouraged because I've stayed the same for a whole dag gone year! I am smaller than I was and no bigger, but I know I have a long way to go. You really encouraged me with your down to earth talk, keeping it real. Thank you so much! You should do this for a living!

    Mo emoticon
    4423 days ago
  • no profile photo MSTAR260
    Loved this blog. You have me whipping tears. I had a similar experience like you recently and I have been sitting home in shame. But I know I got to do something.
    4425 days ago
  • LNINAS2008
    Lynn Girl,
    You always amaze me with ur God given wisdom. I remember last year when we briefly met on sp and I was touched then by your enthusiasm. I'm sooooooooooooo very proud of you, and Babylove818 you will do this with the hubby and 3 kids. Love y'all, and have a great weight loss year emoticon
    4428 days ago
  • MRS.HUFF4LYFE
    This has been so motivating for me that it has brought me to tears. I weigh 236lbs and have not been under 200lbs in 8 years. I am so ready to do this you are such an inspiration to me and other women. May God Bless You Sista!! emoticon
    4428 days ago
  • BABYLOVE818
    Thank you so much L,

    This truly a blessing to have someone with so much fire and determination on my side. I think that you will be an inspiration for not only me but for all SP on thier journey.

    It is funny how it took us years to get to where we are today but we want it gone in 60 seconds. LOL. I have made it a mission to change my out look on things and to set rewards for every little achievement. We all see to fall off the band wagonwhen we reach a plateau (This is what I did). But, this time and this will be my last time I going to ride it out. I have chosen to Low carb it as I totally love meat and veggies and then gradually bring back in the carbs. I can't do the Atkins diet as 20 carbs is much to strict for me. My problem is excerise. I find by the time that I get off work, go cook for the hubby and 3 boyz and clear up..... I am exhausted so my plan is to plan ahead my meals.... batch dinner on Sunday, start to log in my food and continue to get encouragment from those in the same position as me (and continue to encourage others myself)

    God Put us in touch with each other (From all over the world) for a reason. It is funny how he gives us the strength but we choose not to use it.

    Mission 1 for me: Reward each and every small goal

    Hugs,
    Babylove emoticon
    4430 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.