Why I am here
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
My wonderful mother told me about this site awhile back. Today I decided I would check it out. It seems as though joining this site will do me some good. I recently had to do some shopping for an outfit for a funeral. I had the hardest time finding anything because I have really put on some weight. I wasn't depressed about it because I knew that I have. I just couldn't accept the way I look in clothes now and the fact that I have gone up so much in sizes. I had always been small growing up so I have never had to worry about it, but over the last couple of years I noticed it slowly coming on. Then it seemed like in a matter of 6 months I had put on an additional 35 lbs. I lost about 10 lbs without even trying so now I am wondering what would happen if I did try.
I am always exhausted for no reason at all. I do not develop an appetite until afternoon and then I get real hungry late into the evening. I know that is one of my biggest problems is eating late. I want to have a better eating habit for myself and my children. I expect them to eat healthy yet I don't. I want to be able to play with my children. I am just always too tired to do anything. I can not stand being this way. I have to wear a hoodie so my daughter isn't embarrassed when my shirt crawls up. She tells me all the time how fat I am. I know she doesn't try to be mean it is just the brutal honesty of a child. I want to feel better about myself, look better for myself, children, and husband.
I never really dieted before, but I do not feel that I am going to diet. I am going to just make changes to my lifestyle is all. I would be happy at about 130-135 lbs as long as I was tone with it. This is going to be tough in the beginning, but I am sure I will succeed.