Anyone seen my motivation? If so, please send it back to me.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Well I will start with the positive part first. Yesterday I was in all my ranges except for my protein. That was a first and I am very proud of myself for it.
Now for the downside....I cannot get the motivation for my strenth training and cardio. I did a lot of walking yesterday and going up and down stairs a lot. A lot of house cleaning. But that is all I did. I am getting frustrated with myself. I am trying to reach deep inside myself for the motivation, but it is not there. I usually never have any energy. I don't think it is that I am lazy, but maybe it is. Or maybe it is something bigger than that going on. Whatever it is I want to kick it and gain the motivation and energy to go.
I know that I had sunk into my depression again over the last couple of weeks, but there was a good reason. The passing of my wonderful grandmother. It has really hit me hard the last week. I was numb the first week. Last week I couldn't get myself off the couch or from in front of this computer screen. I wanted to be left alone. Yesterday I went grocery shopping, did dishes, laundry, made cupcakes for my daughters class party, made dinner, and cleaned the kitchen and basement. I kept myself pretty busy, but I didn't get to bed until 5:30 this morning because I needed to wind down. So of course today I am beat and do not want to do anything.
If anyone knows of any tips for gaining motivation I would love to hear them. I have been reading the motivation articles through here, but that don't seem to be enough. I wish I had someone here with me pushing me, or could join a gym, or even just had some equipment here.
I am going to keep going at it though. I refuse to give up. At least I am watching my nutrition part of it though. I will get there. I know I will. Just hopefully I find this motivation soon.