Just Like Domino's

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

This has been the strangest, most exciting & healthiest time in my life in many years. One things leads to another... a table top lined up with domino's and they're now slamming into one another.

I had some realizations sink home for me at the end of 2008. So, knowing full well, that to change anything at all, means I was going to have to change my life first, and if I wanted things to be different, then I was going to have to use MY energy to change them.

So, here I am... and the whole two months I've been involved with SparkPeople, my life has been like a blur. I'm moving more, I'm choosing better & healthier foods, I'm de-cluttering decades of hoarded crap that have felt like an anchor around my neck, my general attitude is much better (inside & out), and I really feel better. I have done more in the last two months than I've done in years.

I sat for hours each & every day reading your pages & blogs... getting goose-bumps while reading your successes, tears of joy for your milestones & awareness's, was breathless over your personal & family struggles, and you shared them all with raw honesty & passion.

Every color choice that is displayed on your SparkPages, the pictures that you share, your favorite quotes, movies, books, lovable pets, your stories of current successes, of past struggles & weekly triumphs or failures, long blogs or short, related even a bigger, truer story for me and my real journey that has only just begun. I hung on your every word, because they mattered to me. Your stories really do matter and give life-lines to those who are drowning.

All of you gave me my life back... in little bits and pieces, so that I would have the courage to try moving more... to follow thru with my long awaited goals... to look a bit deeper into the real me... and to trust beyond my current level of trust, to forge new & exciting friendships with all of you. Not on the personal level... I'm talking about a safe haven to share and be real without the masks of illusion that we so often use in public situations.

This has been the scariest thing I've done in all my life... sharing such personal feelings, thoughts, experiences, etc., with all of you. And, you've made is so easy. I now have dreams, and since my husband has been home for all these weeks, my dreams changed to things of necessity first. So, once I've taken care of all my past goals and long awaited chores, I will move into my dreams for my future and begin my new life. I've also learned patience... baby steps are so important for long term success with any new lifestyle changes.

So, the domino's I'm talking about... a beautiful story, a great laugh, courage, milestones, etc., that you shared here, which opened many a-shut-door for me, created new opportunities for me to envision a new future awaiting me. I'm limited in my words to express how wonderful it feels to be getting so close to done with years of stress & shame, that I'm going to be finally free... free to begin my life again, with all the tools provided for us here on SparkPeople, and the encouragement and support from all of you, that is beyond anything I've ever witnessed, seen or heard about before.

My promise to me... I will complete my vision board, get up and walk 6 morning @5:30, and continue to move, dance and dream a new happier & healhier me.

Blessings, gratitude & joy to all of you. And, please keep us in your prayers... they are so powerful and every prayer really does matter and makes a big difference.

P.S. This is not a personal baby, just a beautiful picture that spoke volumes to me.

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  • VRR1970
    You beautifully said exactly how I feel about SP. It means so much to me. All of the motivation and encouragement makes you want to do this that much more. It's awesome! I tell people about SP and what a wonderful place it is. But I'm so glad to know that you are happy and excited. You'll never run low on encouragement and motivation here- no ma'am.
    There are great people just like us that want to accomplish better health. If we get encouragement and give it along the way, we'll have more confidence to get there. emoticon I'm so happy that you're taking care of yourself. It feels good, doesn't it? Well, I just wanted to say I'm proud of you making the committment and emoticon . Have a great week!

    Take Care,
    Vicky emoticon emoticon
    3888 days ago
    I love reading the blogs and spark pages, too. It lets me know I'm not alone...we're all here for the same reason, and we all struggle, but together we can do it!
    3888 days ago
    Ohhhhhhhhh I know yer right! Very true. Scary but we are DOING it!
    Even scarier? Or a shot in the arm?
    I choose the latter!
    watch out world - here we are!

    3889 days ago
  • NHGRL68
    I feel the same way! Spark People and all the people on it are really the best! And you really write a great blog:-) Best of luck to you in your journey:-) You are accomplishing your goal big time! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3891 days ago
    Couldn't have said it better myself. The SP community is simply the BEST!

    Great blog!
    3893 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Get up every morning and DANCE, is a good idea.
    3893 days ago
    I am in total agreement with you-
    I don't think I've ever found such a supportive and positive place- it makes you feel like you can really work out the real issues that led to being unhealthy. I too have found myself working on my soul right along with working on my body :)
    I'm so glad to have you as a friend- and to get to know you through reding your thoughts and stories here in your blog.
    emoticon Missy
    3893 days ago
    okay we might of helped a little but it was all you sweety. your blog was great that is how i feel the love and support here is tremendous. your on your way to a new you. i hope i get to come along for the journey. emoticon emoticon
    3893 days ago
  • 4CYNDI
    Thank you for sharing this journey with me.
    3893 days ago
    Wow! I could never have said it that well, but my thoughts exactly! I've started this journey a bunch of times, and was never successful. This site,and the people on it, have made all of the difference to me! It's wonderful to hear someone say "me too!" I'm sure you will be successful!
    3894 days ago
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