The Pain I carry with me
Sunday, June 07, 2009
I still carry emotional pain with me but I believe the physical pain really overpowers it. The physical pain causes me to become very aggitated and aggrivated and I just not a nice person at all when I am in THAT much pain!!!! I TRY not to let it get that far but sometimes I cannot help it, it just creeps up on me. And what pain killers I do have left, really don't work even though I am taking 1300mg of them. I need some really REALLY STRONG painkillers because of how my system is, its all messed up and anything 500mg and less is going to be like eating candy, and with some painkillers like darvocet, the 650mg was like eating candy, so i had to take 2 of those to get a tiny bit of relief. I don' t have any lubrication in my spinal cord, my discs are drying out and deteriorating and that's part of the problem. I think i am going to go to the Emergency Room in the morning to get my back checked out b/c I have been getting a burning sensation in my spinal cord once in awhile and then it also makes my whole back burn too. That is NOT a pleasant feeling. So we'll go get it checked out tomorrow and find out what is really going on since my pain specialist won't be back until the 16th.
OK sorry for babbling, I do that when I am in pain, but thank you for listening and for your support!