Is this for real?
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Ok seriously, I have said it before...every time I try to lose weight something happens!! Every single time. I am an angry woman today who needs to vent. So just hang in there if you are reading this.
First of all, I was all nice and content (but still in some pain) in my lovely little brace. Go to the dr today and I cant even explain what the hell he said is wrong except to say it will take 6 weeks or so to heal. And so I was told I needed a cast, but I cant drive with a cast. No driving means no work. No work means, well it isnt an option so it doesnt matter what it means. So I told him there was no way. So they put me in this freaking moon boot or a cast. It is huge and all the way to my knee. He says if in 2 weeks I still hurt then I have to have a cast for at least 2 weeks to let my ankle heal. Grrrrr. I will be damned if I have a cast on my leg. If it isnt actually broken then lets just forget the cast, right? No, not in my case cause that would be too easy.
Second, I started low carbing. Was so excited. Felt great. I am not losing a single pound. And I have picked up some sort of nastiness from one of the kids in school and I feel like sh*t. My luck. Back 3 weeks and already sick. I stopped breastfeeding which is ok, and Avery is loving his formula. I think he loves how much he gets. I know I wasnt making enough milk for the poor boy. But now that I am not feeding him, I know my body has slowed down, I am no longer burning those extra calories, and the menopausal state I was in (according to the dr) is now returning to normal. My body has been trying for a month to have a period. But it starts for a day, and then dissappears for like 4 or 5. So I am in hormonal chaos. I am hating things right now. I am depressed. I am angry. I am mad cause I never see my husband cause of his job. I am pissed off that I never get nearly enough sleep and still have to get up early each day to go to work. I want a break. I need a break. I am borderline on being a straight b*tch this week. I need a break before I really blow.
Ok, now I have to go deal with life again. Erica is being extremely noisy in her little Barbie world and it has woken up Avery.
I need a drink...