How many agains can there be?
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
I am so tired of beginning again. Thankfully, this time I'm not undoing any further damage...that was taken care of before I had the strength to say go again. I MUST, MUST, MUST identify the problems.
The weight/overeating is not the disease, but the symptom.
Denying my needs.
Pretending to be superwoman.
Okay, Lord...now what? You and I both know that sharing that tidbit where it needs to be shared is not an option right now. I won't say YOU can't make it one, but I'm dealing with reality here. I need to go to YOU with my issues, and not anyone else.
Since I know who I am in Christ, it was a lie from the devil that I needed to feel accepted. YOU accepted me, and that's really all that matters. I will trust you to change those hearts and give me what I need when I need it.
Admitting that I am not in control of much at all is difficult. A truth so obvious I ignored it. Couldn't see the forest through the trees.
It mostly sucks that I can't seem to do this (the right way) by myself. I guess no man (not even me) is an island.
I need to keep positive, encouraging material before me always...lest I become distracted. AGAIN.