Tuesday, July 14, 2009
I am quite irritated right now. I am having a drink to try to calm myself due to the fact it is our first night around each other since the Saturday upset. We are not really speaking. He came home before we got there and he didnt call or anything. And when we got here he talked to Erica but not me. I asked why he is acting this way towards me. He said it is not me, he is just stressed and frustrated. He took a nap and so I took my aggression out on a walk. My mom gave me money to go get him some rum (his favorite) thinking it would help him relax. So I let him sleep some and then I gave him dinner and offered a drink. He said he didnt want a drink. When Erica threw her temper tantrum, that all changed. Now he is on the phone with his best friend. I am half listening. But it makes me sick how normal he is acting with Dion and how he is laughing and talking about things. Why cant he act like this with me? We have had our ups and downs btu we have always talked to each other. I am so confused. I am so frustrated. And I am so damn lonely.