needs a BIG kick in the ass
Friday, July 17, 2009
today i went down to the beach only to be surrounded by tiny girls in little bikinis. i of course am stuck in a one peice, wearing shorts and a serong. SIGH. i despise summer right now. its not even so much how other people view but how i feel about myself. i shouldnt care, im working on it i work out everyday i eat well most of the time..MOST of the time. i still slip but such is life, my weight flux's so much i hate it, im not even weighing myself anymore, havent in a month. i feel extra lazy all the time cuz its sooo hot out. i dont know. today im going grocery shopping, going to be everything on my spark list and not stray from it! my mom brought me dennys home last night after she was off work, i ate onion rings and chicken strips at 3 in the am!!! i bet thats happily found a home in my ass haha. daaaaamn. no more of that!