Tuesday, August 04, 2009
how great. i'm on day eight!! im starting to feel proud of myself for sticking to something - - even if it has only been for eight days.
yesterday i made many healthy choices! im so glad. after overcoming my donut and carb cravings yesterday i went to the grocery store to hit up the salad bar. haha, yes, i went to the grocery store to make a salad for lunch... odd, i know. =] i made a small, but filling salad, and wanted some soup, but they didn't have any vegetarian soups... so instead i got a pea salad. probably not the healthiest side dish, but it was yummy! =] i had that for lunch with a smartwater - and drank the whole bottle. one of my many goals is to start drinking more water, i'm working on it, but i don't really like water at all... if i add lemon to it i can tolerate it, but it was a huge step in the right direction for me to finish a bottle of water!
after work i got home and took my dog for a run. thats right... run, not walk. again, i feel so proud of myself for that. rather than coming home and crashing on the couch like i have felt like doing so many days in a row.... i just told myself that i needed to do it for both of us... my dog loves the exercise and i could use the exercise. we ran 1.5 miles almost non stop - i actually lasted longer than he did! lol, but he's only six months old, so i guess i can't push him tooooo hard. =] after we got home from our run we went to his puppy class where we had to run around and work on agility stuff... i got plenty of exercise and i feel great.
for dinner i ate my whole six inch sub. i got a veggie sub with vinegar and a splash of olive oil, on wheat bread (no cheese). subway is one of the places i consider a 'safe place'. i know what i can get there, and i know exactly what the carbs, calories, and fat grams equal in almost everything i'd order. i guess that is part of my eating disorder, but at the same time part of the healthy decisions i have to make on the way to recovery. im really working on the whole 'planned meals' thing this week. when i dont know what something contains (i.e. calories, fat, carbs, etc.) i tend to get all anxious and freaked out and then i will either restrict or binge - so, as crowald has suggested i'm going to start tracking and planning my meals so i dont have to worry about wondering what is in something, i'll already know what is for breakfast lunch snack and dinner and i will be able to stay on track.
one thing i should mention though, is that this morning i woke up on time almost. thats a first in a LONG time. i was at work by 7:25, only an hour late. i know what you are thinking... wow i was still an hour late to work... but lately i haven't even felt like going to work - - and it has definitely been taking its toll on my 'sick bank' at work... so the fact that this morning i was able to get right up, get ready and make it to work MUCH earlier than usual is another huge step for me. i wonder if its from the exercise, or if its from the healthier food choices i made yesterday... i didn't eat anything that would be high in fats and/or sugars, so i didn't have anything dragging me down, and i exercised a lot yesterday which they say burns off stress and is supposed to help relieve anxiety.
anyway, im proud of the small steps ive made in the right direction. im hoping to keep this streak alive, even if it is only day two... i suppose everyone has to start at day one, right? tonight, another run with the puppy, another set of healthy meals and hopefully a restful night that yields an 'on time' appearance at work.