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Any Minor World that Breaks Apart Falls Together Again

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

I've been having a rather rough time of it lately in terms of work stress. I don't want to get into it but things seem to be lifting a bit so I am hoping that will last. But I did want to put out this song as it's been kind of a meditation for me lately. Music helps me, lyrics always have. I guess they mean more to me than they should, but it's the title of this blog that has kept me going.

It's karma, you know, the cosmic cycle. The world breaks apart and then is renewed, over and over again. Even my own little world. And so, I hope, a renewal cycle is beginning.

But melancholy takes a while to lift, so this year (because it is my birthday today), the party will start off slower than it did last year.

At age 47 I can honestly tell you that I still feel a bit like 17 and a bit like 27 or 37 and even 7. It was exactly 30 years ago today that I got to my first college dorm. My parents helped move me in and gave me a chocolate cake and a can of chocolate frosting. Y'know how many friends you can make with the line, "Wanna help frost my birthday cake?"

Every year I take stock at this time of year. Partly it's because it's my own personal New Years' Day but also because it's the start of a school year so it's easy to get into that mode. I've accomplished a lot. Last year I got a lot more weight loss out of the way, but this year I am considerably more toned and in better shape. I am starting to live the life of a thin person, not just a dieting person. It's a good life.

And it's got room for cardio. Cheesy cardio.

Happiness doesn't always come. But with you, my friends, it comes more often, and more easily and it lasts longer. You lift me up and make things so much better. You're gonna make the next 47 rock even more.

Because I'm geeky, because I'm silly, because I relate way too well to Office Space and Napoleon Dynamite, because I know all the lyrics even as I've forgotten High School French, because I've got canned heat in my heels, and most of all because I love you all, this one's for you:
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  • MRSAKINS2005
    Happy Belated B-day my friend!
    4054 days ago
    Happy Birthday emoticon !

    I see you like quoting songs (this one Steely Dan, "Any Major Dude (Will Tell You)"). I am also reminded, on my own birthday, of the Paul Simon songs "Everything Put Together Falls Apart" and "Run That Body Down".

    I was a big Canned Heat fan for a while; they made it up to #11 on my Favorite Bands list in the 1980s. That music just gets better with age.
    4065 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/2/2009 10:12:21 PM
    Happy Birthday and Happy New Year! Hope the stress gets better...I'm happy to be here to help you feel better!
    4065 days ago
    Happy Birthday!!
    4065 days ago
    May the TRUE gift of this birthday be a lighter emotional load! You'll get through the stress. Have fun celebrating your birthday!

    4065 days ago
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    Happy Birthday and thanks for the gifts of music! You're pulling your load and helping all of us with ours!
    4065 days ago
    Happy Birthday. I always enjoy your blogs.A great way to start my day emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4065 days ago
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESPAH!!! Thank you for all the inspiration and wonderful blogs. May your day be wonderful!
    4065 days ago
    Just wanted to wish you a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
    You have made amazing changes this past year and I hope the coming year is a great one for you too.
    Thanks for sharing your insightful blogs with us.
    Best wishes.
    4065 days ago
    Happy Birthday!
    4065 days ago
  • H-2-OH
    Great blog!
    I'm sorry things have been stressful and I hope your cosmic cycle is on the way up, too. Love memories like that. I think it's great to evaluate your life on your birthday. Have a great day!

    4065 days ago
    Happy Happy Birthday!

    Wow - you're starting to live the life of a thin person. How wonderful. Being active & making healthy choices because that's just what you do. Shopping for clothes and buying only what looks good on you. Sitting wherever you want at Fenway. I hope the situation at work starts to improve and that you can fully focus on enjoying this new life.

    Enjoy yourself on this beautiful day.
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    4066 days ago
    Happy Birthday Girlie!

    You can take your stock and say you are it! What amazing accomplishments. What a wonderful life. And you make it look so great, sound so great.

    Happy day to you and your hunny. I hope your day is just full of joyful music, the best sights and experiences Bahston has to offah. Just enough introspection for a healthy foundation for the year to come. Maybe a little exercise. Maybe a little of your favorite desert. And the admiring affection of all us Spark Buddies.
    4066 days ago
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