Sunday, September 20, 2009

Wow as usual it has been too long between blogs and thankfully someone reminded me of that.

SO I am blogging. I am starting over today-reinventing myself and what it means to be me!

So who am I and where am I going? I have been a lot of places and a lot of different things this year-mostly I've been a patient and an impatient patient at that. I have been a student, daughter, sister and a friend. But I you know the one thing I haven't been is me. Or at least the me I want to be.

I of course want to be healthy, wealthy and wise. So in the long run I have been slowly headed in the right direction. But now I am taking a little more control of my destiny-I know God is in charge but I need to help him too! He can't work miracles if I do not let him. So I have not gone back to school this fall since i didn't believe I wanted to start another semester behind from the beginning. I felt lilke since I was having surgery the second week of school and wouldn't know the outcome of it would be or mean for the long run-I needed to not go and place that stress on myself. So now this year is about getting healthy.

I've started to exercise again-despite the pain I still have. I have decide to have a prophylactic mastectomy in December and continue with the reconstruction as well. So I have just a little over two months to get my act together and be in the best shape I can be. This means tracking food everyday-even on the bad days-which I used to do until just recently. It also means getting off my butt everyday and getting in some exercise-even if it just 10-15 minutes. That I will reconnect myself with my friends and support system and not push everyone away.

I want to thank all of my spark friends who have supported me through all the stuff that has happened in the last year with my cancer diagnosis and subsequent surgeries, my fathers death and just my continual ups and downs of my mood disorder!! I could not have made it this far without your love, support and prayers-so THANK YOU!! I can never say that enough to make you all realize how important you are in my life!
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    You and me both Missy! We can do this!
    3678 days ago
    Sounds like a wise plan, Gracie. I know you've been through a lot. Exercise is good for the body and mind. You are right: if it's only 10 - 15 minutes it is still mighty powerful. Glad to see you back.
    3779 days ago
    It sounds good that you are giving yourself some time for doing what is necessary rather than just rush, rush, rush.

    May God bless you!!!
    3779 days ago
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    That is great that you are setting goals. I hope you accomplish them. Since I just recently joined here, I haven't been around to know what you've been going through recently. I'm sorry to hear about your father and cancer diagnosis.
    3779 days ago
    Gracie: I'm sorry I've been so out of touch; I didn't know you were going through the death of your dad and yet more surgeries. My heart and thoughts are with you. Good for you for stepping back with the school work for now. The time will come and you'll be better prepared. You know we say WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND. You have given others support and they would have been lost without you. I know that your support of me helped me through tough stretches. it's only right that now when you need us we are there for you.

    Many hugs,

    Gail emoticon
    3779 days ago
    Great to hear the wonderful postive outlook Cory! You give em hell girl!
    3780 days ago
    Glad to see you blogging again!

    I'm glad that you have decided to give yourself time and space, rather than pushing on with your course - that will still be there when you're good and ready. I think you've made a wise decision to have the mastectomy, but it's also a brave one.

    Thank you for all the support you give to all of us on the Team - our moods may be all over the place, but it's good to know that there are people who accept us as we are, AND know where we're coming from. emoticon
    3780 days ago
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