Calmness in the Presence of Chaos
Monday, September 28, 2009
Today I called Alltel about my mobile wireless problem and they informed me that the problems is their fault and no one elses. A server problem. They are working on it.
My son got called to work today at the high school to sub for shop. It is always interesting as it is a high testosterone zone. My son is working on his black belt for taekwondo and hopefully he won't need to use that skill today. LOL.
Hubby was able to go back to work today. Hopefully the kidney stone will behave itself.
Little Wheeler is eating okay. Not as good as usual but we are getting some food down her.
I talked to Dad again. He sounds depressed. I have no idea what I can do to change that as I can't fix what is wrong with Dad. I offer my support and he thanks me for it but it won't return him to his former physical level and that is what depresses him. It's all about his declining health. How do you convince someone to make the best of their situation and give someone the will to live. I know of no way. I saw my grandpa go through this and my mother. They fought for years but when they became really infirm they just wanted to leave the world. They willed themselves to die.
I ate terrible yesterday. I may have consumed 2500 calories. Who knows what my carb intake was. I don't even want to know. I'm back on plan today and that's all that matters to me. I'm totally exhausted and feel "run through the ringer" but I have tons of work to do and I will concentrate on that. The serenity prayer comes to mind.