A Busy Saturday
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I must apologize to Doris Day for prematurely burying her yesterday. LOL.
I really appreciate everyone's support and advice. I have been so stressed out and sleep deprived that it was hard for me to think. One of you mentioned that I should keep trying talking to different nurses at the hospital sbout dad and I did and it worked. This nurse was on the night shift and her attitude was much different than the other nurses. She hesitated several times and paused but she answered all my questions and even told me information I didn't even ask for. I have to be careful how I use that information because I don't want to get her in trouble. She told me Dad is very emotionally labile. One day he is happy and joking and the next day he is very depressed and giving up. He is physically handicapped from recent back surgery and now with the heart valve replacement. He doesn't want to live any more. He talks about my deceased step mother a lot and he wants to die. He is being transferred to a smaller hospital a few blocks away on Monday. I wish he were closer to home. I have tried to call my uncle but he doesn't answer.
Wheeler had a really bad day yesterday and we had to give her pain med to get her under control. She has done a little better today but she wants to be with us every second. There is no real improvement in her condition.
My appetite has disappeared. I am having to poke down what I can get down and my calories are around 1100 a day. You would think I would be a waif by now but I'll be lucky if I lose an ounce. I'm so insulin resistant. I have to get my exercise in when I can working around Wheeler's syringe feedings and meds which are every 3 hours. I got to go for a 48 minute walk today and it was great. I hope to sleep well tonight.