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A Busy Saturday

Saturday, October 17, 2009

I must apologize to Doris Day for prematurely burying her yesterday. LOL.

I really appreciate everyone's support and advice. I have been so stressed out and sleep deprived that it was hard for me to think. One of you mentioned that I should keep trying talking to different nurses at the hospital sbout dad and I did and it worked. This nurse was on the night shift and her attitude was much different than the other nurses. She hesitated several times and paused but she answered all my questions and even told me information I didn't even ask for. I have to be careful how I use that information because I don't want to get her in trouble. She told me Dad is very emotionally labile. One day he is happy and joking and the next day he is very depressed and giving up. He is physically handicapped from recent back surgery and now with the heart valve replacement. He doesn't want to live any more. He talks about my deceased step mother a lot and he wants to die. He is being transferred to a smaller hospital a few blocks away on Monday. I wish he were closer to home. I have tried to call my uncle but he doesn't answer.

Wheeler had a really bad day yesterday and we had to give her pain med to get her under control. She has done a little better today but she wants to be with us every second. There is no real improvement in her condition.

My appetite has disappeared. I am having to poke down what I can get down and my calories are around 1100 a day. You would think I would be a waif by now but I'll be lucky if I lose an ounce. I'm so insulin resistant. I have to get my exercise in when I can working around Wheeler's syringe feedings and meds which are every 3 hours. I got to go for a 48 minute walk today and it was great. I hope to sleep well tonight.
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  • no profile photo MYRENAISSANCE09
    I am so glad the nurse filled you in, but I am sorry the news is so grim. Try to take care of yourself. emoticon
    3753 days ago
    I'm glad you got some info at least. I am so angry that you have to fight to get it though! And I am so sorry it is all coming at once. Dad and Wheeler is more than you should have to bear.
    May God grant you peace!
    3753 days ago
    Glad you were persistent and got some answers. I really applaud you for being mindful of your own health through this time. Good for you for poking down some food and getting some exercise. Staying healthy yourself helps your loved ones...

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    3754 days ago
    Your weight loss efforts need to take a back seat to all the other demands that are currently in your life. i continue to hold you in my thoughts and prayers i know how hard it is to deal with aging/ill parents, sick animals and still juggle your family and your own health.
    3754 days ago

    Thank you for letting us know whats happening. I am glad you got a nurse to give you info.. Sorry your Dad is having such a hard time- hospitals do that to older people too. also sorry wheeler is not much better. try to take care of your self and get rest when you can.. we all care about you all. my prayers are still with all of you..
    3754 days ago
    I don't know what to say except I'll be praying for all of these things. I'm happy you were able to get some information from the nurse and I'm sorry for all the stress and baby Wheeler's problems too. I'm sending some sunshine into your heart! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3754 days ago
    Still praying for you and will continue to do so as I worship the Almighty Living God today. Love you!
    3754 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/18/2009 7:43:05 AM
    emoticon What a wonderful nurse, to fill you in. I'm so sorry that the news is not better. Has your brother called you, or have you called him? It really seems like your father would benefit from a visit and there is no real reason for him to deny you. I know -- I do ... how hard it all is and how perplexing. Perhaps he will have a new lease when he arrives at the new hospital. It is odd your uncle hasn't called you back - people should never, ever deny information about a loved one. It is just cruel.

    I hope Wheeler turns a corner soon. I bet that walk did you a ton of good. I know when I have been very stressed, my chest gets constricted and I really fly out of my body so I forget to cook, or eat. Routine can help so much, but I know that is not possible right now, with your pet being so sick. You are in my warmest thoughts.
    3754 days ago
    Good to hear you got through on your dad. Wish you could get through via your family.

    I'll keep praying for you.

    3754 days ago
  • JUNEBUG1944
    I'm glad you were able to finally get some information about your Dad. I hope he does better and that you are able to see or talk with him. Poor Wheeler, she is really having a hard time. Poor baby. And, then there is you...take care of yourself, my friend. You really must eat to keep up your strength so you can care for and worry about everyone/thing else!
    3754 days ago
  • LLTS01
    I hope you get some rest too. I am really worried about the level of exhaustion you are subjecting yourself to. I wish I could help.

    3754 days ago
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