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My Sunday

Sunday, October 18, 2009

We had 4 inches of rain the other day and then this weekend we suffered through 2 really cold days. Freezing. I had to cover my potted plants and I have tons of them. It is supposed to warm up.

I felt horrible this morning. So tired and shaky and sick. I am having so much trouble eating. I missed a meal as I was too sick and went to bed - crap - and I'm sure my blood sugar was tanking. I'm trying but it isn't easy.

I am not getting enough sleep either. I'm trying to work on that as well.

Later I got to take a long hike with hubby and it helped me feel human. I really need to get my exercise in as it helps my stress. I NEED this to stay sane.

Dad transfers to the other hospital tomorrow. I hope he does better at this one. Maybe it will be an improvement. Maybe they can help him. Maybe they will see that letting his daughter be in his life is in his best interests. I can only hope.

Wheeler is going back to the doctor tomorrow. Say a prayer for us. It's a long drive. I'm tired. It would be nice to have some good news. Unlike Dad who has given up, Wheeler fights hard to live. She is a sweetie. She is resting quietly on my lap right now. I'm enjoying every moment I have left with her.

I feel like breaking down and crying a lot. But I know it won't help me or my family. One of the reasons I am able to function as well as I do is because of your emotional support. Thank you for caring.

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    Being there for each other is what this is all about. Just let us know what you need.


    It's impossible to go through life without any help.

    3743 days ago
  • LLTS01
    I am at a loss of what to say other than you know you need to take care of yourself. You need to eat so try having little meals all day long- just a bite here and there to keep your blood sugar in check and give you some energy. I don't know how to help you on the sleep front. Have you tried some meditation? There are a bunch of free podcasts that you could download.
    As always sending lots of hugs your way.

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    3745 days ago
    Oh honey!
    Prayers being said!
    3745 days ago
    I will keep you and your family in my prayers. It is motivating to read your blog and see all that you are faced with and to know that you are still trying hard to take care of you by hiking and trying to eat right. Tomorrow the sun will shine again.
    3745 days ago
    Morticia! I was taught that when there are things we just can't seem to do anything about; that is the time to turn it over to our higher power! He is the best man for the job any way isn't he? You know I am here for you as you are aways when I seem to need a buddy!

    I love you,

    3745 days ago
  • JUNEBUG1944
    Sometimes crying does help. It does relieve stress. I'm glad you were able to walk. I know the serenity and beauty of the outdoors is a great morale booster. Try and eat. You really need food to keep up your strength. Good luck...I hope everything gets better for you.
    3745 days ago
    Please try and eat something. How about a warm, soup - like vegetable soup or chicken soup. Something with protein and nutrition in it. Poor dear, life is very hard right now. I feel like you are really being tested. Someone else said that this will pass, and it will. I definitely will. Today is a beautiful, warm day - I hope this helps and also helps it to feel like things are on the upswing. Prayers and thoughts are with you!
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    3745 days ago
    My prayers are with you as always....'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'
    3745 days ago
    I'm adding my prayers for you too! I can understand both - we have had a very sick pet before and also my dad is sick too. Just hold on!!! God will give you strength!

    As for the weather - this is Southern Illinois for you! I was glad to see the sun yesterday!
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    Comment edited on: 10/19/2009 10:44:28 AM
    This too shall pass, that's what I'm telling myself also. ( though your problems are so much worse than mine) I think that even though Wheeler and your dad are both sick, that it somehow comforts you when you hold Wheeler. Life is so painful at times but at church last night, the special guest (who had twin boys born prematurely 13 years ago and one had an eye that didn't develop and the other had cerebral palsy) said something that I'd never thought of. He said that on the mountain tops it's cold and icy but in the valleys, flowers and trees grow. He also told the story of the twin that had a glass eye who told him that he was watching out for his sister's barbies, after they found his eye in her doll house. (He wasn't supposed to take his eye out or be in his sisters room) God be with you, your dad and, of course Wheeler too. We are your friends. emoticon
    3745 days ago
    I have been where you are and it is difficult not to give in to those hopeless feelings... there is not really anything i can say that will change what you are going through...just know that there will be an end to this.
    3745 days ago
    You have my support and prayers as you go through this extremely difficult time. Take care of yourself because if you are sick you can't help anybody else!

    3745 days ago
    Just keep doing the next right thing. You honor your family and all those you touch. My prayers and positive energy come your way.
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    3745 days ago
    I will certainly keep you in my prayers. This is such a stressful time for you. I only wish your brother would be understanding and make changes in the visitation. Let’s hope things improve tomorrow.
    3746 days ago
    If you don't want to cry in front of anyone, take a nice long shower and cry your eyes out. Believe me it does help! Sometimes you just have to let it out. when you finish crying during your long shower, you will probably sleep like a baby. You will relieve a lot of tension and stress.

    I hope you get some good news real soon.
    3746 days ago
    I understand about not crying. When my husband was diagnosed with bile duct cancer two years ago, (one hair away from pancreatic), he told me that he needed me to be strong for him, meaning: no crying. It was just by God's grace that I didn't, because there was no way that I could have done it by myself.

    Know that we are still here for you.

    Please try and eat at least some rice if you can. That will help settle your stomach, and help absorb some of the excess stomach acid that is churning up as a result of the stress.

    3746 days ago
    I can feel through your blog what an emotionally draining time this is for you. Sending prayers for your dad, Wheeler, and your own strength...
    3746 days ago
  • DEEGEE757
    You're stronger than I. I'm so sorry you're having to go through all of this. My thoughts are prayers and still with you and your family (of course that includes Wheeler too).

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