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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I'm re-posting a blog from APRIL 2009-- (Significant Meaning to Follow)

Have you ever had that light bulb go off emoticon -or had a spiritual breakthrough where you realize you just had a profound thought and wish there was a way to put it into words? Well I'm going to try, though I'm sure this wont come of nearly as amazing as it seemed to me in my head yesterday. Perhaps it was more the whole situation that made it really cool.

So yesterday I'm running the mountain near my house. Its a warm day emoticon (82 degrees), and there was hardly a soul in sight. Just me and mother nature on a beautiful day. I was 3/4 of the way done with the 3 mile trail. As I'm coming up the last hill before I descend down to where my car is I had a moment of clarity, just me all alone in the desert running listening to cold play's song "viva la vida", the words of the song say emoticon"I could rule the world" emoticonand I thought "HELL YAY I CAN RULE THE WORLD, I'M RULING IT RIGHT NOW!" ( like to pump myself up ha ha) It got me to thinking about my journey.

When I had my wake up moment of: "GET OFF YOUR ASS AND FIX THIS MESS YOU CALL YOURSELF!!" on September 25th 2008-I was 210 pounds emoticon , miserable with the way I looked and felt, couldn't run for 5 seconds with out being winded, lift a 5lb weight emoticon, or do more than 1 push up. Even though I was so sore I couldn't walk after my work outs emoticon, I chugged on and pushed through because failure wasn't an option for me. I knew if I kept it up 'someday' I'd get to where I wanted to be. Even though I had no idea when 'someday' would come emoticon. On days at the gym where I just wanted to give up and thought 'IT'S TOO HARD I CAN'T DO THIS!' I'd yell at myself (in my head) and say "STOP THAT! YES YOU CAN-THINK OF ALL THE PEOPLE ON SPARK WHO HAVE DONE IT! PICTURE YOURSELF IN THAT BIKINI-PICTURE THE LOOK ON YOUR HUSBANDS FACE WHEN HE SEES YOU LOOKING THE BEST YOU'VE EVE BEEN emoticon-IMAGINE GOING SHOPPING AND BUYING ANYTHING YOU WANT-YOU CAN DO THIS!"

When I started, 20 mins on the elliptical was my max, 5-10 lbs on the machines was all I could do emoticon. After a few months I was doing 30-40 mins on the elliptical and lifting 10-20lb weights on the machines emoticon. I could feel myself getting stronger emoticon, it was getting easier and my body was changing emoticon (WAAHOOO). BUT I still wasn't where I wanted to be (fitness wise). I wanted to do more!! Eventually, I got the courage to branch away from my old stand by the elliptical and tried a spinning class emoticon. THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE (literally) But I FELL IN LOVE!! I had been so afraid and intimidated of spin classes and classes in general before. I always thought they were way out of my league and the expert spinners would take one look at me and think "WHAT'S SHE DOING HERE??". But it was totally the opposite! Sure it was a HUGE challenge at first and 20 mins in I wanted to quit emoticon- but I struggled through it until I was better at it (who knew that would EVER happen!). I loved the spin class so much I decided to try other classes so I got into "LIFT" which was also surprisingly awesome! I now have muscles in places I never knew existed and I can flex my arms and see a bicep! emoticon

Now for my AH-HA moment: Yesterday on the mountain I realized emoticon"HOLY CRAP I CAN RUN A MOUNTAIN!" emoticon(Okay so I can't RUN the whole thing, BUT I do run the straight aways and the down slopes) NEVER EVER EVER in a million years would I have EVER pictured myself doing that. In fact I always watched those people and thought HOW CRAZY they were! But it got me to thinking "WHAT ELSE CAN I DO THAT I NEVER IMAGINED" and my big moment of clarity....... "ANYTHING!!!!". I know now that whatever I set my mind to can be done. If I want to run a marathon I can do that emoticon! If I want to ride my bike from Phoenix to Tucson someday I can do that too! emoticon I don't know where or when my moment of greatness will occur but it will be somewhere even if its just "MY" moment of greatness. With all I've been through, yesterday I proved to myself that never again will I allow any negative thoughts to defeat me because even what seems impossible - with lots of hard work - IS ALWAYS POSSIBLE!!!!!

spark on friends!! emoticon

So that was me April 2009 -- That "moment of greatness" and that elusive "someday" is here! I decided right after that blog "my moment" will be conquering the Grand Canyon this year. A task that previously would have never even crossed my mind or seemed possible is happening in two days!! Parts of me can't believe I'm even doing it, and the other part of me knows I've been ready for some time. This last year has been an amazing journey and looking back at past blogs truly shows me that I CAN do anything I put my mind to. NO matter how hard things ever get, we all start somewhere, but CAN achieve greatness!!! Even though I started not being able to do a single push up or exercise for more than 5 minutes with out wanting to die, HERE I AM hiking the grand canyon!! This trip has been a year in the making. When I started this journey I knew I wanted to achieve greatness, push myself to do things never before imaginable, and show myself just what I'm made of!! So here's one of many chances - I know it wont stop here, this trip will be the first of many. It will not be easy, 11 miles down, followed by two days of exploring & rugged camping, then 11 miles out will be no easy feat but I'm more than up to the challenge! I've spent the last few days preparing myself and packing. I've mentally prepared myself knowing I've never done this long of a distance hike before, I'm prepared with all the necessary supplies, and ready to do this thing!! I've spent the last two days psyching myself up watching videos on you tube and reading others online journals about their experiences. I can't wait to set my own eyes on one of the most photographed places on the planet, bask in waterfalls, and be able to say "I HIKED THE GRAND CANYON!"

Some of our food-Not the most nutritionally sound, but its light weight and easy to cook. Not yet purchased: dried fruit & & summer sausage

Some of the Supplies-Not pictured: tent, sleeping bag & a few other misc items

My Pack - 23 pounds (with out water)


Me-surprisingly it doesn't feel very heavy

I am back there somewhere LOL

Trail Maps

You wouldn't know it by looking at the previous pictures but a lush oasis lies at the bottom-one of the most photographed places on earth Havasupai - "people of the blue green water"

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    What an inspiration!
    4159 days ago
    Reading this has inspired me so very much !!, got me to thinkin that this can be me one day, posting a blog like this.

    Thank you so much !!!
    4188 days ago
    I couldn't help crying while reading your blog, it gives me hope and encouragement too. Your picture with the big pants says it all too! Amazing. I used to look like that at one time, I never dreamed I could do go back, but I am sure trying. I had to run into brick walls and have them fall and hit me on the head first, but it is turning me around. I pray for stength like yours to keep it going and never give up or go back. Thanks!
    4188 days ago
    Wow. Your "aha" moment is making me believe that I can have one of my own.
    Thanks for your story
    Good luck on all your journeys!
    4189 days ago
    Wow. Your "aha" moment is making me believe that I can have one of my own.
    Thanks for your story
    Good luck on all your journeys!
    4189 days ago
    Ever inspiring, thank you!
    4189 days ago
  • HELFA002
    You continue to inspire me! Can't wait to see your photos!
    4189 days ago
    Awesome are doing amazing and yes you can do anything you put your mind to!!!
    4190 days ago
    That's amazing. Enjoy it!
    4190 days ago
  • JENM1977
    I can't wait to read about your experience! Congratulations on getting to this amazing place in your life.
    4190 days ago
  • BERGIE8771
    An amazing personal journey and this will be an amazing trip. I'm pretty sure there will be plenty of pictures too. Can't wait to see them!
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    4190 days ago
  • PISTL67
    sounds like a fantastic adventure! emoticon
    4190 days ago
  • no profile photo STEVENTS
    Have fun.
    4190 days ago
  • no profile photo DANCERGIRL9763
    Wow! This will be such a great accomplishment! It is really motivating to see others working towards and accomplishing great fitness goals! Good luck and enjoy it!
    4190 days ago
    4190 days ago
    Oh wow! In the first place, the Grand Canyon has always held a mysterious appeal to me ...and hiking there is too cool. That can be my reward at the end of this journey too...only I will need a flight get to the US first! :-)

    Someday ...!

    Meanwhile, have a fantastic time ... yet another first go gal!

    4190 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1480519
    I so want to see the Grand Canyon. Have a fabulous time!
    4191 days ago
    Thanks for sharing. emoticon
    4191 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2951145
    Havasupai is definitely on my list... can't wait to read all about it when you get back!
    4191 days ago
  • LUNA2000
    Good Luck & Have An Amazing Trip!!
    4191 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5553271
    This is so awesome. This is why you're such an inspiration for those of us still early in the journey. Thanks for sharing and enjoy yourself and celebrate this great accomplishment!

    4192 days ago
    Wow ~ what a wonderful goal to have set for yourself. It looks like it will be an amazing adventure!! I can't wait to hear all about it and see more pictures!!

    Wishing you the best time of your life!!

    4192 days ago
    I can't wait to see all your pictures and hear how amazing it was! I know you are going to do amazing, Stacey!!!! Have fun!!!
    4192 days ago
    Oh wow! You are going ot have so much fun!! You are such an inspriration to PUSH myself when I feel like quitting!! Thanks so much for posting this! emoticon
    4193 days ago
    what a great blog...cant wait to see the pictures. You are so inspiring

    4193 days ago
    So happy for you. How awesome is that! I would love to take a trip like this one day :o) Can't wait to see the pix when you get back.
    emoticon emoticon Hope the weather stays nice for you.
    4193 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5972746
    Have a great time Girl*in Motion. You deserve this. When you are at the top of that mountain think off everything you have done and how much of a motivator you are to us.

    Thank you so much for all you do!!

    Have fun!! emoticon
    4193 days ago
    you are going to have a wonderful time!! Im so happy for you :)
    4193 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2644837
    It's HERE!!!!
    It was great reading that blog again and good for you on rereading it to get that mindset again!
    You sound very prepared.
    What an exciting and fulfilling journey this will be.
    It looks BEAUTIFUL!
    Have a GREAT time!
    4193 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3624827
    I am so excited for you!! How far you've come is so amazing and it must be absolutely thrilling to be able to do this. Seriously, I'm so excited to hear how it went and see the pictures, you'd think I was going myself!

    Have a wonderful hike and be safe :)
    4193 days ago
    GREAT BLOG babe! How long are you going to be gone for? You're going to have such a good time and you're so ready to do this! HEY- maybe next year, I can come out, and we (me, you, Andy, & Chris) can do it all over again?! I will be thinking about you when you're gone, as I always do. You're amazing and will do fab! Great snacks, great plan and a great smile!

    Oh- btw..I miss you too.
    Hey, check out my latest blog. I know you can give me some good feeback :)

    I LOVE YOU!!!
    Be Safe!
    Be Careful!
    Have a good damn time!!
    4193 days ago
    Not only will this be an awesome accomplishment for you but it will be an incredibly BEAUTIFUL adventure! How gorgeous those falls photos were. I can't wait to hear all about it when you return. I'll be praying for you! Soak up the milestone!!!
    4193 days ago
  • STACEY3940
    I am so motivated by you and your accomplishments. I know inside that if you and so many others can do it, then it is possible for me too. Sometimes I wonder where your strength comes from because mine kind of comes and goes sometimes but I understand we all have good and bad days. I just need to be sure the good days out number the bad days.

    I have a question for you. At what point did you start running. I would love to run but I honestly can only do it for a minute or two at most and I feel embarassed to run at the gym because I'm flopping and flapping all over the place. Did you start that after you'd lost a considerable amount of weight and did you start off only being able to run for a min or two? I go to the gym 3-4 times a week and I can maintain a high speed on the elliptical or bike for 30-60 mins I just cannot run. Just curious how you got to the point that your at, if you don't mind me asking!

    Thanks for the inspiration and motivation!
    4193 days ago
    I don't know you personally but we have a few mutual SparkFriends and I came across your blog. Have an AMAZING time! I love, LOVE backpacking and have only heard of how astounding Havasupai Falls is! Looking forward to seeing pics and hearing your report when you get back. Have fun!!!!! emoticon
    4193 days ago
    You are going to do amazing! Enjoy it for all of us that can't go but hope to someday! Keep inspiring!
    4193 days ago
    4193 days ago
    I got chills just looking at the pictures and the excitement on your face. You go girl. Your words exert a lot of power and I FEEL IT!!! emoticon
    4193 days ago
    Wow you are an amazing inspiration. You are going to have so much fun. I can't wait to hear how it went.
    4193 days ago
    Have an AMAZING time it looks fantastic! I can't wait to hear all about it. And you've inspired me to possibly do the same . .it looks SO BEAUTIFUL!!!
    4193 days ago
  • 1972ROSES
    Good Luck. Have fun! Be amazing as you already are.

    Thanks for the inspiration.
    4193 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3838585
    How awesome you are as a person!! I can't wait to be where you are now. I'm so excited for you and your hike. May you marvel in all mother earth has given us. I'm sure it will be truly inspiring! GO GIRL, have a BLAST!! I know you will emoticon
    4193 days ago
    Wow have a fantastic time! emoticon
    4193 days ago
    Seeing as I wasn't on SP during your original post I really enjoyed reading it!!

    And I canNOT wait until you are back from your trip. That sounds amazing!! I want to read your new posts and see some pictures. Is it a strange thing to say I'm proud of you? I had that moment where reading your SPage that I realize I identify with you the most.. and in me being "proud" of you is sort of a flash forward affect for me!

    You have made such a great change in your life and you probably don't even know how many lives you've touched because of it, either on SP or in real life! You should be so proud of yourself and have a ball on this trip!
    4193 days ago
    So exciting! Thank you for sharing and have an awesome time! :)
    4193 days ago
  • BARBARA8541
    This is so inspiring. I hope you have an amazing time. By the way you look so little with your pack on lol. I know you can do it, but it sure looks heavy :)
    4193 days ago
  • MANDAO97
    I got an adrenaline rush just reading your blog - you are going to feel amazing when you conquer the grand canyon. It will probably be a great break from the stress of everyday life - to just be in nature- pure and beautiful. Have a great time - can't wait to hear about it!
    4193 days ago
    I'm so excited for you! I'm walking a 5K for the first time on Saturday, and I'm excited about it...but the Grand Canyon! WOW! Good luck and take lots of pictures!

    I love your old blog...I HATE exercising...I don't like to be uncomfortable, or sweaty, but I always like how I feel when I'm done. I'm trying to learn to embrace the burn and sweat, and push myself harder. I lost about 50 pounds about 5 years ago, and I didn't do a minute of was all food choices...but my body doesn't work like that anymore! It NEEDS exercise...I know I'll get there, but that's my biggest struggle.
    4193 days ago
    AMAZING!!! Enjoy every moment of your journey, take it all in, the sights, sounds, smells EVERYTHING!!
    and most of all:

    YES YOU CAN!!!! emoticon
    4193 days ago
    OMG that last picture is so cuuuuuuuuute! :D

    Have an *amazing* time - you really have been preparing for this during your journey, and what a fantastic way to confirm everything you already know inside: you can do *anything* you put your mind to!

    Have fun and take lots of pictures! :)

    *big hugs*


    4193 days ago
    I love this. Thank you so much for being an inspiration!
    4193 days ago
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