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Can I really do this??

Monday, December 07, 2009

You guys have been so supportive along my journey. By now I should have progressed a bit but I haven't. I found it hard to stay on the recommended food plan and I cannot seem to find the time to exercise. What is wrong with me?

I am feed up with having to pop Ibuprofen and Aleve everyday for my aching knees and inflammation. I don't like having the numbness when I lay a certain way in the bed. I want to be healthy and not get winded when I walk 20 feet with my son. I want to shop off of the rack at the mall.

I don't want die early and miss out on my sons life because I am too fat and not healthy. I even considered the by pass and lap band but my insurance doesn't cover it. The doctor gave me another diabetic diet and even after a few days I ignored it. What is wrong with me?
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  • RENA1965
    When I was sitting in your situation social services threatened to remove my children if I didn't get my act together and care about myself.. Cruel but effective if you know your hurting your children directly by bad decisions..
    My kids were having nightmares and pleading to me to stop eating in their sleep.. My kids now support me and sleep soundly.. I thank social services for giving me a wake up call..
    I lost my husband to diabetes, my home due to lack of money and still had to put my youngest in a foster home when he got his diagnose.. Since then, I lost my weight, my spinal injury rarely annoys me and I ain't popped a pain pill in months..
    We have to be more aware of what we will lose, my kids are still sad over the loss of their dad. Don't make your kiddy sad this way, by not caring about yourself.. You are worth it. It took me a couple of years but I fought my way back to life and lost 176lbs..
    Good luck, just take it slowly- rome was not built in one day..
    3894 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/7/2009 12:08:34 PM
  • AMY69ROSE666
    You realize you're your own worst enemy. Nothing is wrong with you, nothing, you just need to have hope. Stop thinking something is wrong with you, that's EXTREMELY counter-productive. I'm the same way, I have pains all over, I have to take meds for it...but it's not the end of the world. Once you build up tolerance it'll all get easier. All those things you want are possible, but they WILL NOT happen if you give up hope and stop trying. I've gone months and months of trying with no seen progress, but there IS progress. You're trying! Give yourself some credit, you're here, you're trying, giving up doesn't make sense.

    Message me ANYTIME, I'd love to help support you through this. You're beautiful, you're a wonderful Mom for trying all of this, keep it up and you WILL see results. Logically it will happen, just stick with it. If you give up, imagine how crappy you'll feel then? KEEP IT UP, Doll!

    3894 days ago
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