What are your friends(?!?) thinking
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
This morning I gave a co worker ...well someone who I think is a really good friend a ride to work. This person and I have been roommates and she was the only person in the delivery room with me when I had my son, so needless to say we have candid conversations about our lives. She is trying to lose weight because she wants to take fertility drugs to get pregnant and I support her all the way. She is a bit heavy but nothing like me. I walked a few times with her at lunch but not all the time because her position is a bit different from mine and then the last time I walked with her she blew me away she was stopped at the corner waiting on me to catch up with her. I really felt I was holding her back so I stopped walking with her.
I didn't stop walking because of her but me. Anyway this morning we had an argument over giving my son cookies. Not that I give them to him but when he's over to her home he knows where they are and gets them. My mom also gives him cookies but she at least gives him the peanut butter ones which are a bit better than the chocolate chip ones to me. She commented that I was not giving him sweets because I didn't want him to be a BIG kid, and I agreed. She continued to talk and I let her know she was about to cross a line that was uncomfortable to me and advised her to back off. SHe didn't she continued to talk and then says you care about him and what he eats then why don't you stay away from the sweets with him.
That was the final straw for me so I tuned her out b/c I know how I struggle with my sugar addiction and yes its an addiction. A few weeks back when I had a wake up call after my doctors visit I went herbal and found out that I have a yeast problem and thats a huge part of why I am a sugar addict. For 4 days I did good I was able;e to not eat any sugars or refined flour. But I got stressed and went right back to my comforting candy bars. I really am trying to get away from sugar so I don't want for my son to get a desire for it so thats why I don't eat things around him or buy him sugary treats. Because I know my struggle and don;t want him to go through it.
Now I really wonder what people are thinking about me. I mean you know how on the tv shows people say they have been discriminated against because of their weight or kids were picked on because of it. I have really not had to experience that in my lifetime. I guess I am blessed in that sense, all though I'd like to think its my winning personality that makes people see past the weight, I really wonder now what are people thinking?