First step to a long journey

Yesterday I went to the Dr. for my 6 week check up after he had tests ordered, blood work and chest x-rays.

I now have to go for a CT scan on Monday, as they found something unusual in my right lung.
Duh...we all know what that is. the thoughts have consumed my brain for the last 24 hours. I have told no one as of yet. no need to alarm anyone,

My mother had her surgery and is doing ok, I guess. I cpoke to her last on her birthday two months ago, and now something is wrong and her phone is disconected, and I don't know how to reach her, at a time like this I know I will want to console in her because she just went through it. My daughter in law also just lost her mother to cancer...this will be a mind blowing thing for the kids to deal with, so I am going to try to do it all without letting them know what is going on.

I know that some of you will comment on this blog, and I do appreciate it. I am just kind of numb at the moment and not even sure what to think.

maybe it will be ok, maybe it was just a shadow?? Yea I know stop kidding myself, but humor is all I have left.