Thursday, December 17, 2009
There are a lot of things I overindulge in, some of them good (like my daughter, lol), some of them not so good (like a food day at work). Last night was one of my bad ones! We were provided food at work, and I ate way too much. The thing is, I wasn't eating fast, actually pretty darn slow...but...I was eating at my desk. Bad me! So, mix that along with slow digestion that comes along with being pregnant and you've got yourself a miserable case of overindulgence that sticks around for awhile.
What makes it even worse for me is that I knew I was being bad at the time, and even though I hadn't felt it yet, I knew the worst was yet to come. Luckily, since I work overnights I was able to sleep all day, which isn't always a good thing. I did have to prop myself up more and crunch on some chalky tums. Now here it is over 12 hours later, and I'm still feeling it a bit. I feel better, but I can still feel that heavy mass on my stomach (or maybe that's the baby?) Nope, no excuses...I feel the mistake from last night! I guess this is one of my natural consequences of overindulging :)
I've actually behaved for a long time in regards to overindulgence. I think it's been a looooong time since I've really had something that I've indulged in. I'm wondering if that's a good thing. But at the same time how many things that are bad for me do I feel like I need/want, or subconsciously think I'm indulging in? Are there things that I do that hurt me (healthy speaking), yet I do them anyway out of habit or craving? Of course there are, I've never been one to have a completely healthy lifestyle. I know there are times when I need to put down the candy bar from the vending machine, or choose to drink some tea at work instead of grabbing a soda. These are things that I should save, up and do a healthier alternative at a later time when I really want something to indulge in. For example, this isn't the healthiest alternative, but instead of eating that candy bar, I could wait for a family gathering and have some snickers salad (in moderation), which has green apples and snickers in it. Something I can indulge in on a special occasion, yet keep in mind portion size and not OVERindulge in it.
I still have a ways to go, but at least I'm thinking healthy. I've been trying to implement healthy, but I'm allowed my mistakes. I can't beat myself down over them. I just have to accept them, learn from them and move on.