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I think I'm losing my best friend

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Cody has been my best friend for the past 6 years. Giving unconditional love and asking for just that in return. We live on the second floor and his hind end is giving out. He has done nothing except pee since October and water for him is just like a drug craving. He craves it. He can’t get enough of it. He’s lost a lot of weight in the last couple of weeks. He used to be 11 0 pounds but now I think he might be 70 pounds. His balance is starting to go and he is breathing hard. He is my only friend and I can’t let him go, but I have done nothing but just sit and sob since the 23rd of December when he fell on the stairs. I can’t bring myself to take his life. He looks at me with those eyes and I just can’t take his life. He was still playing with his ball as of yesterday! I don’t know what to do. I can’t, I just can’t let him go, but if he’s in pain I have no right to ask him to stay. I don’t think he’ll make it through the week. If he does I’ll be very surprised. This year’s Christmas has been awful. How do you say good-bye to your best and only friend who gave you love without question? I love him so much.

I just can’t let Cody go…..I love him so much

I know some people can't understand the bond between a person and a dog but when you can't have kids, they become your only children. That bond is just as strong. How do I break that bond now by taking his life. I just can't let him go.......

I have two other girls that have gone to Rainbow Bridge, but unlike the poem, I don't think I'll ever see them again. Many times I have the feeling that I'm not going that way and I'll never see my dogs again. I have a lot of times felt like I would be going in the other direction, if you know what I mean.

Thank you for letting me start the process of letting by best friend go

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    You're in my prayers.
    3302 days ago
  • SANDRA0011
    Heather...I am an animal lover and I know what you are going through. Please take him to the vet might be something he can do my heart goes out to you.
    4085 days ago
    This may come across as very unfeeling and obtuse, but I absolutely don't mean it that way: have you taken Cody to the vet to see what's wrong? Cause it sounds a lot like something with the kidneys/diabetes. With that said, my heart goes out to you and Cody. My dog is my best friend, and I know I'll be a complete mess when I lose her. I'll be keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers.
    4085 days ago
    oh bless you - i completely understand as i have had animals all my life. it sounds like you have given Cody so much love, i am sorry that you are sad. Message me if you need someone to listen **big hugs** Amy
    4085 days ago
  • _DASH_
    I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. Dogs really do make the best of friends. I just got my own dog this year and already I can't imagine what my life will be like someday without her. I hope you find peace and Cody doesn't suffer long- keep pictures of him everywhere and know that you had a great friend, one who unconditionally loves you and had a happy life because of you.

    Take care of yourself,
    4085 days ago
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