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January 1, 2010

Friday, January 01, 2010

To day is a new day a new year and for me a new life....
I'm feeling very emotional this morning.
I went back and read some of the post from my old journals...
I read my sad and some bitter words I said about myself from 2006.
I read how i was going to start this new program, sure it would not work...
It told me to eat a huge amount of calories....but my words were what do i ahve to loose but 200 pounds, that sends tears to my eyes....
How in Gods name can I loose 200 pounds.....
I stopped reading the posts as it was a day to be happy and get some time with family.
Gary came in the room and wanted to know what was wrong, how could i be unhappy..
He took me by my hand and had me look in the full length mirror in my office and said....now this is not a unhappy person, you have accomplished what most only dream about.....you have won the biggest battle of your life , you are the most determined person i have ever meet....YOU ARE A WINNER....now the tears really started to flow....he is such a sweetheart.
I went to clean myself up and decided to change in to a new outfit I had bought a while ago....
I slipped it on, one of those soft pants and jacket set, and it hit me, I can fit in to a size 10..OMG I'm wearing a size 10, back in 2006 I wore a size 44 jeans, I never could find this sort of out fit in my size, I don't know the size top but remember some were 3x ..
It is a lot to take in sometime, it's over whelming some times, its scary sometimes, but most of the time is just wonderful.....I have accomplished what most just dream about......
So today as I start a new day a new year a new life I am so grateful I found Sparkpeople and it helped me be the women I am today, it helped me find all you wonderful people and mostly helped me be a healthy and Happy person......

So this year when you wonder if you can do this, if you say you have had enough, its just to hard, remember ME...it was hard it can be over whelming but my dear friends it is so worth it.
I can't express just how wonderful it feels ...

Have a Healthy and Happy New Year....Together we can enjoy a healthy life


Kitt
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  • TRAILWALKERJO54
    I love reading your blog we have all grown and learned from you so thank you..
    I am so happy to have met you here and glad you found sparks and we found you..

    Tears of happiness are best be happy you did it!
    emoticon Jo
    3604 days ago
  • HAPPYSOUL91
    This is truly a day to celebrate your new life. I am glad you are the women that was lurking but not living.

    Thx for your wonderful blog, it certainly give me motivation!
    3604 days ago
  • WINTER20101
    Kitt You have came along way!!llol and congratulation on your success.....a life time of commitment......
    3604 days ago
  • RAINBOWMF
    You are home for life Kitt!
    Thank you for sharing! emoticon
    3605 days ago
  • LESWHO
    I think you did such a great job
    3605 days ago
  • PYNNER
    Gary sounds like an amazing person and you have accomplished so much. You deserve to be so proud of yourself. You have come far and I'm sure the road wasn't always easy for you, and the changes you have made will ensure that you will enjoy your life and get so much more out of it. Congrats on doing such an incredible job with you life.
    3606 days ago
  • FORMYDARLINGS
    Thank you for sharing Kitt. It means so much to hear you say that you had a hard time, that you wrote awful things about yourself, that you thought you couldn't do it. It helps me to believe that I can do this too. If you made it so can I. Thanks for always being right by me when I need a friend or a push from behind. I admire you and your kindness and hope to remain your friend,

    Gini emoticon
    3606 days ago
  • SOCKITTOME
    Wow, Kitt...what a heavy day this was for you! It's like you went from the bottom to the top in 5 seconds! You truly are a winner, and Gary's timing in walking in was impeccable. It's a lot for you to process...it will take time, and I hope you allow the good feelings to wash over you and remove any doubts you have about your victory. You can do yourself in if you focus on the fear and negative side. Look forward and seize the power of the positive. You are awesome and will continue on this new path to healthy living, because that's what you do! BIG HUGS!!!!!!

    3606 days ago
  • TRACYZABELLE
    Happy, healthy, slimmer New year to you! Looking forward to supporting you in 2010!

    TracyZ emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3606 days ago
  • LAINIESNEWLIFE
    You are amazing, Kitt!!!! Thank you for all your support.

    Happy New Year!!

    Hugs,

    Lainie
    3606 days ago
  • BARBARAROSE54
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    3606 days ago
  • POSITIVELY_EB
    Your husband is such a keeper!!!

    Happy New Year, Kitt!

    Hugs! Beverly
    3606 days ago
  • SECRETMUSIC
    It is hard to adjust to losing close to 90 pounds; I can't imagine your 203. Thanks so much for sharing!
    3606 days ago
  • JCORYCMA
    Kitt, I'm crying tears for you! Transforming oneself is a HUGE psychological impact. I can identify with this so much. I felt like an impostor in my own skin for a long time. I don't know if I'll ever feel truly like a "thin person", but that helps me feel like it's gift that I gave myself and I don't ever want to squander it and take it for granted. What's so amazing about you, besides your tremendous weight loss, is your inner beauty that you so willingly share with us. That's something you can't measure on a scale! Thanks for being you and HAPPY NEW YEAR!
    Joanne
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    3606 days ago
  • JUDYSGOINGDOWN
    Amazing work. Thank you for the motivation.
    Judy
    3606 days ago
  • HIKERSAN
    Kitt, how I do Love you! You are an amazing person!

    This time of year is really great for reflecting isn't it!

    Hugs,

    sandy
    3606 days ago
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    emoticon emoticon Sherry
    3606 days ago
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