early morning thoughts
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I just got done posting else where , trying to express my feeling about do I believe in myself..
I have lost 203 pounds and it just doesn't seems to be enough.
I always feel that if people knew my real feelings or thought they would not like me, as I am never quite good enough....where does that come from.
In typing right now I have the strongest urge to delete this because I'm worried people will think .....Kitt is a nuts....she must be going off the deep end or needs more carbs as her brain is not firing on all cylinders this morning....
not sure why but trying not to deny I am a food addict has really set in back....I wonder why I keep going....
When I talk with Gary about these thoughts he said...You want to be healthy, you want to be able to do the things you wanted to do....go back and read what you have in your journal....well you have done it all , you reach your goals and then some....now live with it, embrace it....over joy in it....Believe it...your goals and dreams have come true.....(big kiss and hugs)
WOW HE IS RIGHT i HAVE REACHED MY GOALS AND MY DREAMS.....now what.....
set new goals, have new dreams.....is it that easy...could it be that easy....NO WAY....lol
Have a healthy day and I promise you I'll be okay.