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early morning thoughts

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I just got done posting else where , trying to express my feeling about do I believe in myself..

I have lost 203 pounds and it just doesn't seems to be enough.
I always feel that if people knew my real feelings or thought they would not like me, as I am never quite good enough....where does that come from.
In typing right now I have the strongest urge to delete this because I'm worried people will think .....Kitt is a nuts....she must be going off the deep end or needs more carbs as her brain is not firing on all cylinders this morning....

not sure why but trying not to deny I am a food addict has really set in back....I wonder why I keep going....

When I talk with Gary about these thoughts he said...You want to be healthy, you want to be able to do the things you wanted to do....go back and read what you have in your journal....well you have done it all , you reach your goals and then live with it, embrace it....over joy in it....Believe it...your goals and dreams have come true.....(big kiss and hugs)


set new goals, have new it that easy...could it be that easy....NO

Have a healthy day and I promise you I'll be okay.

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    I think your hubby is a smart man--he is right...
    and like a friend of mine says that's my story and I'm sticking to it!
    You my dear are emoticon

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    3560 days ago
    It CAN be that easy - if you let it! Are you up to the challenge??!! LOL!
    3560 days ago
  • SHORTY2010
    I understand too Kit. And whatever you do... don't ever delete what you write because of what others might think. You need to get your true thoughts and feelings out no matter how unusual they seem. Writing helps us learn about ourselves and it brings incite about what we are thinking and feeling.

    You are doing an awesome job on maintaining your weight loss. I can totally see why you are so frightened about gaining the weight back. Use this fear to your advantage... allow it to help you stay focused on your new healthy lifestyle. You are okay and you are doing great!

    3560 days ago
    That is wonderful advice from you loving and caring husband. How about setting a goal to do a 5k. You can do whatever you set your mind to. Have a healthy day.
    3560 days ago
    Kitt, I think Gary is giving you great advice.



    3560 days ago
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    3560 days ago
    I totally understand what you mean. Sometimes when i post a loss, I feel like such a total faker. Even though I really took it off, I feel like a phoney because my self image hasn't caught up to reality.
    I saw someone the other day. She had lost weight too. I was admiring her shape, the way she looked and carried herself now. When I told her so, she said, yeah but you have lost more and you are smaller.
    And when I looked closer, I could see she was right. But it doesn't sink in that I am not 242 pounds still. I guess I am waiting for something, but I don't know what it is.
    3560 days ago
    I just sent you a private message, saying (I think) the same thing that Gary must have said (didn't read your post before I sent it, so I'm just guessing). As I said in that message, don't get wrapped around the axle with the "food addict" label. We aren't labels, and that is not denial. You have changed your lifestyle and don't need to be wrapped up in some stupid label. You've done it, baby! Now you need to move on and learn to live in this next phase. You will do it. I suggested making new, different goals, which is exactly what you just said in your post. You are in new territory and it will take time to learn it and to become comfortable. Give yourself that time, without all the drama of labels. Just be yourself. You are doing a fine job. Don't let labels and those games derail you!!!! If you do that I might have to come down and kick you in that little ass of yours! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    3560 days ago
    Your hubby sure is a sane guy. I don't think you are nuts, just human and what you are feeling and thinking is soooo normal after losing weight.

    I agree that you need to set new goals and new dreams because now you are a "normal" weight, you can do so much more. All of our energies get wrapped up in the goal and that is why we should have 3 goals going on at the same time. It is a technique that sales people use.
    3560 days ago
    You have a wonderful husband, please listen to him !
    3560 days ago
    I understand......
    Yes set new goals and dream new dreams.....don't limit what you can do , you are an amazing women , let yourself BE that person that you are!
    NO MORE SELF DOUBT! you have been created to be beautiful , so embrace it and live it, it is a gift!

    Have a good day, and no you are not NUTS!! lol emoticon
    3560 days ago
    Gary sounds like a sensible honey. You carry on my dear because you look amazing. You probably feel incredible since the better health. Then on top of it all, you inspire many of THATS why you do it. emoticon
    3560 days ago
    i think you are doing get kitt
    3560 days ago
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