You think I'm too thin....so how come you're thinner?
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Or something like that!!
This blog is a long overdue rant about all about the people that keep telling me they think I can stop now. They think I shouldn't lose any more weight. They also think I look great just how I am.
Well thanks for the compliment - it was a compliment right?!?!
I do feel pretty amazing with how I look right now.......but guess what?
I don't want to stop yet. I don't feel that I am at my goal weight. I will also be quite happy to lose my last 25, yes 25lbs.
If I could capitalise the I in those last sentences any more, then I would.
Yes folks, this is about ME and the size and shape that I want to be and not the size and shape that YOU think I should be.
I know I have lost a LOT of weight and I do look like a completely different girl today at 155lbs, than I looked 3 years ago at 260lbs. This change hasn't happened overnight, but slowly the realisation that I am not the fat girl any more, has sort of dawned on other people.
I am on the last stretch of my weight loss and when people ask "You don't want to lose any more weight do you?" My answer is actually YES I do!!! I am not ashamed of the fact that I want to be slim.
I was ashamed of the fact that I was morbidly obese and yet others didn't feel the need to say to me then "You're not going to get any fatter are you?"
No of course, when I was super fat and struggled to walk, stuffing more and more unhealthy food into my mouth, nobody said a thing. Nobody asked if I was happy at my weight or proceeded to critique my eating and (lack of) exercise plan.
Now though, everyone is an expert on what I am doing and how I should be doing it.
I have been thinking lately about where these comments are coming from - the backhanded compliments I mean. Oh and just for the record I do have plenty of close friends/ family who have only positives to say as well :-)
As for the "I think you can stop now" people, who are they?
Let's think about this and break it down, they are-
older than me
slimmer than me
weigh lots less on the scales than me (no muscle weight?!?)
don't look as great as me?
I'm not wishing to sound like a b*tch by this last comment, but I think this is what it comes down to.
For years people have been used to seeing me in a certain way and they are used to me being the pretty fat girl. To most people this is just who I was, but to other women, well, we do like to judge ourselves and others don't we!?! I used to be pretty, but not as pretty as them. Slim, but not as slim as them. Now though the tables are turning. I'm approaching a weight where I look as slim as they do and as I'm also embracing my new body, I am making more of an effort with how I look too.
Maybe they just genuinely think I look great now, but then why not just say that. Why the need to tell me that I shouldn't get thinner? Concern over me going too far? Worried that I'll be underweight? Maybe, but there's a long way to go until I have to worry about that!
I think there's more to it than this. I think that I'm doing great losing weight, looking fantastic and working hard with my diet and fitness to achieve it. Maybe the fact that I'm doing all of this is just a reflection back on all the things that they AREN'T doing to make the most of themselves.
What I'm doing isn't easy. I have to work EVERY day at making healthier choices. I workout on days that I don't want to. I say no to foods that I enjoy. I try to keep motivated, so I CAN change who I am for the better. I choose to do this for me because I want to.
So if you are one of those people who ever thinks to yourself "she can stop now" I'm telling YOU to stop. Why do you REALLY feel the need to comment on ME? Is it through genuine concern......or are you just worried that I'll look better than you?!?
My new tactic for people who tell not to lose any more weight, is to tell them that I think they should put on weight. I tried it today. I told somebody straight back that I actually think they should put on weight, until they weigh the same as I do. You should have seen the shock on her face. She was aghast at the thought of weighing 155lbs. Yet when I pointed out to her that was what she was telling me to do, she sort of got what I was saying. Either that or she thought "What gives you the right to comment on my weight?" So maybe now she knows how I feel.