Thursday, February 25, 2010
Got my blood work done today for my yearly physical. We'll see how the numbers come out.
Last night got news my oldest way laid off. Good news is that he goes into the ocean this Saturday for the first of his scuba training certificates. His mother in law is his instructor and his wife will be shadowing the dive. He is stress and worried about how it will go and having a hard time being out of work, gets very depressed being home and not making money. I am close to bankruptcy with the ever increasing interest rates. Was doing ok until they tripled on some accounts. Desperately want to help but i am not in a position to. Again I feel helpless. Like too many things are out of my control.
With karate practice and grandma being on a rant was unable to talk with Anthony last night. Hate having to except the things I have no control over. Want to help. Want to do good! I am not a control freak or anything like that. I hate to not be able to ease suffering and make a difference for those I love. I pray that there is a reason or purpose for all that my loved ones go through even though I may not know the why of it. Still haven't discovery the why of my life .Like being needed and useful but hate being abel to see the need and not be able to do anything to ease Anthony's situation or my son finding emloyment.My oldest boy just got married this last September. I think I uploaded a wedding photo.