Saturday, February 27, 2010
Trying to get ready for my visit tomorrow with Anthony. Will see my daughter in law too. Today I am anxious because my oldest is doing his first ocean dive. I am worried because his instructor is his mother in law and his wife will be shadowing the dive and his father in law is at the helm. It has taken eight years of living together and a marriage to get him to take scuba lessons and he was so worried about forgetting something. He has never done well under pressure and had himself worked up for the worse. Waiting to hear is driving me nuts. I know they won't let him drown but if he doesn't live up to there expectations he'll get very depressed. He wanted calm, clear water for this dive and we have had storms all week and possible tsunami waves? He is dealing with being laid off and is stressed about getting a new job. He has been putting applications in at places that say they aren't excepting them or hiring just hoping.He needs a positive. He suffers froms moods and depression. He can't stand being home it drives him nuts. Never matters how old they get they are still our children.Need him to find work my name is a co signer on his motorcycle loan and the payment is more then I get in SSDI.
Tomorrow I make the drive over the pass.The weather is supppost to be okay.Winds are always a problem crossing but no major storms due like last Tuesday.Have the tournament and errand to run with Anthony.Will get to visit my expectant daughter in law.2 more weeks to wait.A grandson is due then.
Next week is going to be busy, need some" me" quality time to unstress and just feel better. Haven't figured out if I can fix my power chair yet. Waiting for the weather to be more cooperative.Will be exhausted without it.Legs have been hurting constantly even when I lay down and try to sleep.
Have faith and pray for good things to happen to good people.