Sunday, February 28, 2010
Worked on the financial yesterday. Not as bad as I thought it was going to be. I wish somehow that I could stay in this house, but in reality that is a pipe dream unless I win the lottery and well yeah right...
Found out my brother told one of my uncles on my Mom's side and apparently the news made the rounds around the entire family within 24 hours. Kind of pissed me off but I didn't tell my brother it was a secret, I guess I was just hoping for a little more time to let the dust settle if you will.
Last night my cousin invited me and the boys over for Pizza. It was nice to get out of the house. The boys were so well behaved. His friend made the comment, well if this is how they behave, what is it like when they are good?! I know he was being a smart ass but it is so true. The I guess sooner or later to be ex lives in his own little world and the sad thing is he will be all alone in his own little world constantly searching for what makes him happy when he won't be happy until he is happy inside and without professional help that won't happen.
This morning my Mom and Dad gave me some fresh sausage and about 20 meals of fresh Hamburger as they just butchered this weekend. That was a nice surprise. One less thing to buy in the grocery store for awhile!
Well I better get going, I have to get the boys from Sunday School and soon I will be late.
I am at peace with my decision and I know I am doing the right thing. It still hurts because I was happy at one time and in love with him too. I guess a piece of me still does love him, I just cannot live with him anymore and continue to enable his sadness and have him bring me down to his level.